What do you think caused the relapse and what can you learn from it to prevent it next time?
It's good to hear that you are doing well.@Redemptionisrequired , @DRAGON_ thank you for the warm words. I feel much better today, and I think that by Monday, I'll be full of energy.
I'll take some lines to explain a bit. I have suffered from allergic asthma since my childhood. It stopped in my teens and twenties and came back in the mid of 30 until now. Now I live in a four seasons country, and basically, I am happy from the mid of spring to the mid of fall (including summer), and I feel sick from mid-fall to mid-spring (including winter)
But for the first time and with the help of my wife, I went to an allergist, who made the diagnosis that I am entirely allergic to dust acarus. Then she offered me a vaccine. I needed to take an injection monthly for five years to finally get rid of this shit that ruined a significant part of my childhood. I'll take my first dose in about one month if everything goes well.
BTW Day 76 is only 14 days for the reboot. I think I will start a reverse counter to keep my motivation.
Stay Strong
I totally agree with you man. I've always compared myself with others and was always feeling low. But I don't do that frequently now. Life's much better. But it still happens sometimes. Pretty interesting message dude. Informative as well.Checking in Saiyan's!
9 Day Free of PMO
Many decisions to be made over the coming days, although I am feeling calm overall. I will have to spend some time this weekend to think things through in meditation. I did have some outbreaks of stress, but not unmanageable and faced it properly. The decisions I take over the next months may have quite the impact on my career.
Today I would like to mention a few words about comparisons. Brothers, do not compare yourself to those who may seemingly be ahead, rather aim to learn from what brought that far in said field. If you spend your days comparing yourself to another, you will ALWAYS find someone who is better than you in a particular field. To bring it back to nofap, say you are someone who relapses every 4 days and that is currently your baseline and you compare yourself to someone who continuously has 60, 90 120 day streaks, you may start to attack yourself wondering why you can't achieve those numbers. The healthier mentality is to learn and ask questions from this person, take what is useful to you and improve you streaks. Measure your progress only by who you are today, in comparison to who you were yesterday.
I'll catch you all on Sunday.
Keep training!
@stronaut2021 My pleasure brother and happy to hear that. Remember 90 days is just a baseline/standard reboot. The really changes come after that, consistent practice and efforts into the habits that carry you forward.
Day 50!!
Mood 8/10 & Energy 8/10
I slept bad yesterday evening and slept quite ok last night (slept from about 11PM till 6AM but wasn't really refreshed). Luckily meditation took away 90% of my grogginess / headaches yesterday and today I had a good day at work: socialized with a colleague at the office and was productive. Tonight is my meditation night: just going to sit and meditate and enjoy being with myself. Free from addictions, free from overstimulation and overloading of information. Porn is not part of my life, I do sometimes fantasize but that's more about real women and what I want to do with them
My hardship and discipline is finally paying off. It took a while and am certainly not there yet but I am reaping the benefits already! Discipline truly is the key to freedom.
Well, stay strong. Anything wrong with you, probably she realized that was cheating her fiancé or husband. This happened to me we had 2 dates and at the third she never appeared and I couldn't communicate anymore with her. Three months later I received the news she was just married with her 4 year boyfriend.Day 57
Mood 6/10 & Energy 5/10
Not sleeping well again: make the 6,5 - 7 hours but wake up at 5:30/6AM and cannot fall asleep. Feel headache / tired and groggy the rest of the day. Just did a meditation session of 30 min that really helped a lot. Did fall asleep a little but glad to feel better. No physical porn urges, but some light frustration on the mental part: had date 3 with a girl and we hitted of quite nicely with the kissing and hugging. Thought she wanted to go the whole way but she did not. Now haven't heard from her for almost a week (did send a message on Wednsday, no response). On to the next right? Making sure to not relapse by posting this message. Only 5 days left for the 2 month mark!
You can create a journal thread in this site and take the notes. Check mine near my avatarDay 10
So many wise word being said here - I’m taking notes to it all.
One of the quickest ways to shoot your progress in the foot is to let the expectations you have for yourself be at odds with what you believe is actually BEST for yourself.
So for example: Let's say that on the rational level, you realize that living porn-free is the single most important keystone habit you could develop to improve your life right now.
But on the emotional level, you also hold the expectation for yourself to be way further along in your career and fitness goals than where you are right now.
The reality is that you likely can't be hyperproductive AND be extremely disciplined with training and diet WHILE ALSO quitting porn.
The psyche can only handle so much voluntary habit change at once.
Typically what happens in such a scenario is that a guy might get a streak of porn-free days under his belt, only to shift into work & fitness mode, get stressed out, and then relapse on porn.
I can't tell you the number of times I've seen almost this exact scenario play out.
The solution has a practical and internal component.
On the practical level, you likely need to separate out these priorities and pursue them with focus ONE AT A TIME.
But the real key is on the emotional level - where you must CHOOSE to give yourself permission to go at this slower pace.
This means deciding to ACCEPT yourself as merely ON THE JOURNEY... but NOT YET AT THE DESTINATION.
In other words, you need to tap into your unconditional sense of worth that transcends any specific measurement of current "success."
You must come to see that the doable path is the REAL path and that holding on to unrealistic timelines is only going to split your focus and ruin your results.
If it's worth doing, it's worth doing at the pace required.
As my favorite saying goes: "Slow is smooth, smooth is fast."
UYAP,
Mark Queppet