THE SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE! What is your Power Level?! (RANKS ARE BACK, GET YOURS NOW!

Day 1

Keeping my mind of it worked, i had no urges. I will continue to do this.

Also, how long du you guys sleep on average? I manage 7,5 every night unless i have a deadline for something.

 

Day 6 completed

 

Day 1.

 

Day 55!

 

Day 2. Feeling better, expecting a flatline soon, still have a long way to go.


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Day 287!

 

120 days free of PMO.
That's 4 months, I am very happy with my progress

@theonlyway I get 7,5 as well although I always feel I need more.
Screen exposure and information overload are things that detract from my sleep. I need to regulate those.

@Redemptionisrequired what things would you like from life that you do not have now?

 

Day 3

 

relapse at day 4,

it become too hard dudes I don't understand what's happening to me these times

 

@Kingfisher day 5 for me. Low class warrior.
But I'm training to be elite!!

 

Checking in Saiyan's

19 Day Free of PMO.

Woke up quite early, could not sleep but I was fine to start the day. Productive overall. Not much more to add.

Keep training!

@theonlyway Probably around 7, can range from 6 to 8 though.

@Against_the_demon_in_myself Travel more, go on more dates , achieve more in my career, level up in my education and level up in the gym. Not to sound conceited, but I am above average in looks and i'm fairly tall (6'3). I've just been dealing with deep trauma and (at times) crippling anxiety for a while(I won't go in detail for this, not yet anyway) and I am slowly but surely overcoming. It's just frustrating when I compare myself to where I was in the past (Prior to severe PMO addiction/avoidance). I'm not trying to victimize myself either, I know I have to do the work, it's just discouraging at times.

 

Day 89 -> ONE day to go!!!

Hello, fellow Saiyans; today, I want to write a bit more and tell you how I feel and how it is now vs Day 0

When I began this journey, I always wanted to know what people feel when they near or pass the 90-day milestone. Well is my turn to talk about my experience.

Progressively I have noticed a detachment from the urge, horny state or sexual arousal and the act of masturbating and/or watching porn. There are now 3 different situations:

• Now when I watch or ogle a girl on the street or public transport, I feel sexual desire. Before, I related it to finding a match of her in porn videos and imagining I was with her. Now I think, "I want her"; I want to be with her, not my hand with pixels.
• I also noticed that when I want to relax from a stressful situation or end of the journey, I want to masturbate in my bed and fall asleep. I think it is like giving me a prize of pleasure, like a happy ending.
• When I am anxious, I feel that I need something. I go to the kitchen and look for something to eat, to drink. What am I looking for? I feel like I want to go to the bathroom, but the sensation is different. No, what I really want is PMO!! And I realize that I have an urge. It means that I have an attachment to porn and anxiety.

Another thing is that I am not afraid of an urge anymore. I now know the urge will pass in 15 minutes if I stop feeding it. Before, I believed that the only way to get rid of it was PMO, MO, eternal suffering or going to sleep. But it is not true; it will pass. The more you get used to it the easier it will be that simply pass.

Also, I don't feel this sensation anymore that I need something to be released (ejaculate).

Now my life is improving in all aspects:

• I am more motivated at work; now, I feel that I can get the job done.
• I can do focused work for more time.
• It is easier for me to adopt better habits.
• My health is improving; I feel the optimism that, step by step, I will solve my health problems.
• In general, I don't always feel tired anymore.
• I sleep better.

And when a relapse idea crosses my mind. I simply say, "ok, it is pleasure, but I won't change what I got for this."

It is important to say that the reboot is a snowball of good things that are not porn addiction-related but are related to your mental health. Mark Queppet says that this duality kills us. On one side is the right man with the right values; on the other side is the man that masturbates in the other room, that has something to hide, that is afraid to be discovered, that someday your wife or daughter will discover a shot of cum, or open the door in the right time, etc. This sensation that nobody watches you except you, and you are judging yourself. It makes you a person that is depressed, that don't take risks and who always feels bad about yourself. Eventually, this psychological state impacts our physical health. This is now what is happening; magically, I am healing mentally and physically too.

Superpowers? Not really, but now I know I can be the man I want to be.

Stay Strong!!! And hopefully, you'll see tomorrow an 90's entry.

Take care

 

Day 2.

 

Day 3. We keep going forward.

 

Day 56!

 

Day 70!!!
Mood 7/10 & Energy 6/10

My suspicions were right: I got a (light) flu. Not totally knocked out but am feeling a bit feverish / coughing somewhat. Funny enough I notice that when I feel sick I am more inclined to search for dopamine driven things: I have more urges to watch video's on YouTube and check my Whatsapp on my phone than normal. I also just let me do it more to distract myself a bit from feeling sick. I really really hate being sick!! I miss my workouts, food does not taste well, sleeping bad, etc. Anyway I also noticed that I also got stronger urges for porn/escorts: I am secretly contemplating if I could somehow find a really sexy escort that I can have risky sex with... it's so stupid rationally but the frustrations of being alone / sad is being elevated by my sickness and I notice my brain is then craving for more of the bad high dopamine things (risky sex is a very high dopamine thing for my brain).

Holding strong though. Just try to allow myself to watch some things on YouTube and try to distract myself with reading a book or going for a walk. Only 20 days left to hit the mighty 90 days mark. Any tips / motivational videos or something is very welcome my friends.

 

Did you know why you relapsed? Did you visit a certain website / app that triggered it? Be aware of these triggers and remove them. For me for instance I do not have a FB, IG or SnapChat account / app and I avoid websites where I know I can (accidentally)stumble upon erotic pictures / videos that might lead to a relapse. Post your analysis here and perhaps we can help you!

 

I can't really tell because yesterday was a perfect day to not relapse

tuesday I was to the gym 1-2 hours so I was very tired at night, then yesterday I woke up very early to work
I was at work all day and after work at night I had a language class. After the class it was like 8-9 PM

I was able to fall asleep since I entered my home bcause of tiredness but I was thinking about this beautiful women at the gym tuesday.. she was in crop top and legging doing her stretching / pilate in very triggering position ...

I didn't intend to see her but I was doing my heavy bag workout (boxing) and she was in front of me, so I could have let down my training and do another exercice but I wanted to respect my training program

yesterday this thought came into my mind before sleep and I started fantasizing and didn't controled myself ..