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Day 36.

 

happy for you bro

 

i don't know why but i am facing urges right know and these are not my thoughts these are real urges ;; when i was studying i started getting urges for a female pornstar ;; my mind started getting thoughts to search her on youtube and look at her content but i will never do that ;; i know that this is the biggest trap ;;; also i closed youtube and will not open it untill the urges goes ;; i have done many mistakes and relapsed as i gave up on these urges in past but this time i will not give up

 

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it's day 7 ;; and it will be completed in 2 hours ;; i am really procrastinating so much and running from my studies ;; infact i want to study but i don't know why , i avoid all the things and procrastinate ;; also due to this i am not performing well in my classes and this time when i am writing this message , i am procrastinating ,, my mind always gave excuses and do not confront ;; i accept that i gets many barriers b/w me any my studies but i can also overcome them easily and i don't ;; instead of fighting those i gives up and use them as a excuse ;; i want to change my mindset to this and i will

 

Day 36.

still very hard...

 

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Day 37.

 

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Sorry I relapsed after 155 days

I don't know how to say this but, I relapsed after struggling for 155 days. I still can't digest the fact that I relapsed few minutes ago. Like nothing came to my mind, my companions, my streak, challenges I am into, my goals...

Today was a bit odd day for me, like totally off from those 155 days. Today I was not in my studying room because there was some work going on, so I studied in another room in which I was sitting alone. Generally when I study in my room there is a person sitting in my room. And if not then after seeing the mountain of books I control the urge easily. But today it wasn't the case. No books in my room today. Also when I started semen retention after 100 days, I completely isolated myself from any sexual content, and then I slowly controlled my mind. But for the last few days that sexual energy was annoying me so much. Like I was not getting any nighfalls or wet dreams. That energy was trapped. I even tried drinking water before sleeping, eating heavy and spicy meals before sleeping, to get a nightfall but I was not getting one. Today I didn't even bathed. When I saw an erotic pic on internet, I thought " let's watch something more erotic so that I can get a nighfall ". After that I saw erotic content, and
I toched my penis a few times and then it ejaculated, like I didn't even fapped but just some touching. And then all that excess stored semen came out. While watching that coming out, I was thinking " Is it real? , did I just relapsed after all those days?", I just became numb for few seconds. And after that I felt very guilty and helpless. Like the thought that I can't see that 155 on my streak for next 5 months makes me very sad.

What happened was truly dissappointing. But I promise you guys that I won't binge now.
Sorry again...

 

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Day 28 check-in! Still going strong!

 

Relapse is not a failure. Giving up is the worst failure. C'moon man! C'moon! You are a wonderful person!

 

Sorry to hear this . The next few hours are crucial as a relapse can lead to a binge session. Try to get back immediately without binging and it will be easier to go nofap again.
I'm myself close to relapse every morning as I'm incredibly horny in the morning. So far I've been 43 days and hoping to reach 60 days.

 

I'm ready for my training.. again. But for real this time. No holding back