the things porn can make you feel...

In my experience, porn always emphasised the distance between me and my object of desire (in a way, similar to the feeling of loneliness you mentioned).
The perceived space between me and, say, a person I was attracted to, increased dramatically when I indulged in porn/masturbation. That led to desperately craving the person, and to longing for both mental and physical connection.
Now, it doesn't sound like my experience is exactly like yours, but I can see a parallel here.

 

I have absolutely experienced this, and my ex sounds terribly similar...

 

To me, it can also make you feel like a third wheel. You're watching four or five other guys take it to some females and you are just staring from the corner of the room jerking your stick. It gives us this "last place" mentality that we can look, but we can't touch.

 

Masturbation along with porn can create depression. That would cause your loneliness and desire to go back to that ex. Stay on your nofap path and you will become stronger where you can find a relationship you deserve.

 

The amount of lust porn gives you its astonishing, it makes you be almost like an animal

 

Wow! Yes I've had that. My ex didn't do those things but there were valid reasons why I broke up with her, and yet after I would relapse, or even during, I just wanted her to be with me so badly. Not necessarily in a sexual way, just wanting to be with her. It's so weird because porn puts your mind in this other place where you're not really sure if the feelings you're having are valid.

I guess they are "valid" but the question is whether they are true to your inner self.

Sorry you had that experience mate, I am sure that is extremely difficult. I hope you're able to heal from it and have a healthy outlook on things, and I hope your ex is able to get a hold of her own problems/manipulative behavior and turn her life around.

 

Yea I totally used to feel the "missing my girl" effect after relapsing every time! it's crazy. youre not alone bro.

 

Its more common than you think. I used to get that feeling from time to time years ago when I was single. Its a good reason to quit and avoid that feeling. Its just not healthy.

 

For me it is quite the opposite - when I miss a girl a lot and know that it is not good for me to go back there I can end up relapsing due to the feeling of loneliness. Afterwards I just feel like shit and feel like I am not worthy of anyone so I do not miss them.