To start, Its very difficult for me not to want to die. I feel completely broken down, weak, humiliated, defeated, exhausted, you get the picture. Eat more vegetables, do this, do that, take this, take that. On paper the doctors say I am as healthy as a horse. Tbh I can't remember the last time I was sick. But everyday is a struggle, every day all I do is drag my ass and try to find the energy to get through daily life and I'm sorry but for me it's god damn hard. I remember a documentary I saw years ago as a small boy. A fisherman was stranded in freezing waters for hours and hours..they couldn't believe he survived. He repeated to himself over and over "the water is warn the water is warm" and so on. As silly as this sounds, you think if I tell my self "I'm not tired" or some mantra like that on and on all day that it will help? I'm open to any suggestions you guys might have.