These two weeks are the best and the worst.

One day at a time, one step of improvement at a time, one noticed improvement will eventually be seen by you and others.

 

Yeah you are focusing on what you perceive as your problem of being single and a virgin, so your brain is queued to notice couples to try to find a solution.

My advice (admittedly from someone who is separated from his wife and now is living a celibate life), is to stop focusing on your problem. Focus on yourself instead. Improve yourself. Reach those fitness goals you have always been meaning to reach. Relationships are fickle. If you chase after them, they just run away. But if you stop caring about them, they will come.

 

You see your circumstances as a curse (single, virgin, alone), but I see them as a blessing. Brother 26 is not getting too old. The male brain doesn't fully develop before 25. I'm 32, not ridiculously older than you, but man do I wish I had the opportunity that is in front of you right now. You are literally at peak potential in your life. (Notice I didn't say the peak of your life, that comes with a lot of work). You're posting here in the loneliness section and I definitely get that feeling. But I promise you that it's a lie, and is only meant to keep you ineffective. If you want to truly destroy it and unlock the man you want to be it's a simple process (not easy, just not complicated).
1. Get an accountability partner. Porn has to go, and you cannot beat it alone. You can sign up on here, or even PM me. But accountability is step one.
2. Porn goes. Edging goes. Masturbation of any length goes. Not just abstaining, but shifting your view of porn from a "forbidden pleasure" to the poison and chains that it really is.
3. Define goals. Physical, educational, professional. Small steps. Daily, weekly, monthly, leading to a 5 year plan.

If you do this your confidence will increase, the "super powers" will kick in, you will become stronger, faster, smarter, and wealthier. The confidence will also make you funnier. And one day (not too distant) you will find new women looking at you appraisingly. You will be the one pursued.

You've already tried the other way, what do you have to lose?

 

At some point along this journey, ending PMO is not the only change you will have to make. Ending PMO may actually change your desire to isolate, as least as much as you currently do.
As you mentioned in your post, you were outside seeing these couples, if you had a girlfriend, you would have to be outside as well. Although painful, being outside was the best thing you can do. It takes allows you to see the outside world and not only your world at home and it also allows you to see and be seen by others, even the potential person of a future relationship. Fight through the discomfort of seeing couples and see everything else the world is offering you.

 

Point taken. My apologies for responding to your post incorrectly.

 

You know what I'd do in your place. Hang out with a girl that your not attracted to physically. That way you get to build your social skills around women and know how to act normally around them. Hang in there , I definitely was there and sometimes feel I am still there. Stay clean