I've been a PMO addict for over 11 years and 5 years that I've been trying to stop PMO but always fail everytime. The reasons that suicide is in my thoughts these days is because i have nothing left. All my family members hate me, porn and women are in my head from when i wake up until i sleep, I havent found any job for years and no university wants to accept me and never have i been in a relationship. So i'm 24 and living with my mom and all she does everyday is complain how i'm a failure and that i can't accomplish anything in life and that her friends have better children because they have jobs and are studying. I've used porn, music, alcohol and everything that is bad as a painkiller for my deppresion that i've had for years and I think about using a knife to slash the veins in my arm so that my mom will deal with my dead body and show her that this is what she have done. But before i do anything i wanted to ask the Fapstronauts opinion on what i should do and if there is any light for me left?