thinking better, clearer but not much motivation.

Discussion in 'Self Improvement' started by zilogZ80, Nov 9, 2019.

  1. zilogZ80

    zilogZ80 New Fapstronaut

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    Hi people, this is my second streak, i feel 68% of the time with no depression, a little anhedonia sometimes. my brain it's working way way better, i have achieved some important intellectual steps in my life. more than nothing in my hobbies.

    ev is ok, have visited tons of psychologist and psychiatrist.....

    good ones, not shit.

    and they did tons of exams. the truth is that they told me what i knew from long time ago. told me that the thing is "my attitude" and what i think about life.

    that there is people that think .... ok i will die.... and then you have no motivation at all.

    you do your life cos your brain it´s healthy....

    but guess what?!?! you are not a stupid ignorant. and guess what?
    we are the only animals in earth that know what dead is.

    so some of us just lost the interest in life, and that's all. you do your life like others but you don't care.

    now you do nofap, my struggle were not m i had a BIG ISSUE WITH ORGIES AND PORN.
    having sex watching porn, that devastated me and a lot of people in this sex groups.

    i have 84 days again, second streak. no porn.... who knows...... may be from one year ago .... i don't know....

    i will keep alive to see what can change. i do exercise, ultra keto diet, no alcohol.

    all in my life is a good treatment from me to my self. but i don't care nothing any more.
    i don't feel anymore suicidal idealization.

    i will keep in the good job.

    may be some day i will recover spontaneous erections, just have bonners in the morning, i know that this is not the important point....

    BUT IT IS IN MY LIFE, COS IN ALL ASPECTS GOT BETTER THROUGH MY BATTLE.

    AND I DESERV IT.

    I WILL TRY TO BE ALIVE.

    CHEERS.

    (I DON'T KNOW IF I STILL HAVE ED, I HAVE NOT SEX SINCE NEAR 8 MONTHS) OR MORE? I CAN'T REMEMBER ANYMORE.
     
    Last edited: Nov 9, 2019
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    keep going brother , all the best .
     
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    zilogZ80 New Fapstronaut

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    ty mate!!
     

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