Hello to all. Tonight i'm thinking of relapse because i don't understand why i'm doing nofap. Many events happen in my life and not good ones. In february blonde woman wanted me to approach her. On first chance i didn't noticed that she wants that, on second chance she was on bus stop and around her were many people, so i didn't approached her. Some days later i noticed her in the morning with a new man. That morning at bus stop i look at her face again just to be sure that it is the same woman. Yes, she was same woman, but she looked older than before. Whatever, she was disappointed. She is not the only woman i didn't approached. Particularly, it is because now i work only half a day and getting only half of initial salary. So, i'm financially broken, What woman will want to have a long-term relationship with me ? I don't know. So i don't approach any girl even if it looks like a good chance. And, i think, i still scared of approaching. As i remember, before nofap i did several approaches, i was more ready for it than now. Several weeks after event with that blonde i take hooker. It was worst expierence for at least two years or even more. Before that i had a hooker in october last year. Week later i did it again and it was even worse. I didn't make progress in my career because of nofap, but lost half of working hours and half of salary. I almost always depressed and almost never smile. So, i don't have a point of continuing this journey. I feel like nofap finally crashed my life. But maybe I'm wrong, so waiting for your comments.