5 years ago, at the tender age of 16, I discovered to my horror that I couldn't get it up with a girl. I was humiliated, dejected, blablala... The moment I've waited for so long was ruined because of porn a addiction. I've tried many (MANY) times to recover since then but always relapsed. a year or two after my failed ''first time'' I had 2 more opportunities with girls where I still couldn't get it up despite having 30 day-ish streaks. Again, humiliated, dejected blablabla... I then decided to not try again until I had at least 90 days under my belt (It still haven't happened yet). So until recently, I declined every opportunities to have sex with a woman ( MANY opportunities. No bragging. Girls often say I'm very handsome and they never believe me when I say I never had a girlfriend. They assume I'm a fuckboy.) My mindset changed after I read this post: http://bestofnofap.blogspot.ca/2014/12/best-advice-for-rebooting.html?m=0 After reading this post, I realized that life would not suddenly get better once I hit 90 days. Life would only get better if I got better. So I started to work on myself and I started to re-learn how to live. <----- (VERY IMPORTANT!) One of the best decisions of my life so far. I decided that I wouldn't let the fear of failure and embarrassment get the best of me. Nope. I decided that if the opportunity to have sex presented itself, I was going to take it knowing I probably wouldn't be able to get it up. Lo and behold, EXACTLY 5 years later, DAY FOR DAY from the time I was about to lose my virginity, I had successful sex. (Crazy how life works) And I relapsed 2 days ago btw. My dick was hard, albeit not rock hard and I ejaculated. (It took a loooong time tho so I know I have DE.) Anyway, I feel really good about myself. I'm proud that I trusted myself to go for it and now I am completely motivated to get rid of this bullshit for life. Have a nice day y'all.