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This is the change I have been waiting for

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by 4eyedfox, Oct 15, 2019.

  1. 4eyedfox

    4eyedfox Fapstronaut

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    Until now I have really felt like i could not speak to anyone about what i have been experiencing because i have felt so alone on the subject. Which is unusual for me i am always doing something active or with my friends and have a pretty good life. But hat all changes when I am overrun by sexual urges once alone. I have been masturbating daily and porn using from what i can remember the age of 13. Recently my best friend opened up to me that he has been having trouble feeling sexual attached to his girlfriend because of his porn use and was experiencing porn induced ed as a result. He even said that he blamed his girlfriend for not arousing him (I thought that this was fucking crazy, and obviously it has been the years of porn use). Which was weird because with my last relationship I abstained from intercourse with my partner because i was in the middle of trying to reset (which was the best part of the relationship in my opinion).I was focused on her and how I could better her and myself. I had hit 67 days with no porn, but was still having sex, and I feel like my life was improving. After we started having sex i just felt as for both of us the relationship had just turned sexual and we were not being treated the way we needed to be. So after ending the relationship i tried to stay strong and continue my nofap journey, but like many others i fell back into my old habits. which really sucked because I was experiencing harder erections and actual pleasure from just being around my girl. I would go a week without PMO but then fall back onto my old ways and fail 2-3 days in a row before making it another week. Well this is the final time I am going to be resetting my counter, and that is because I am doing this for me to be the successful man i know i can be. I am going to fix the person I have become as a product of our tricky brains. I am going to take charge of my life again. I am going to do this by going out and getting the job i wanted in the first place, working out 7 days a week again, taking the extra mile and reaching out to people, and not taking no as an answer. The good change in life is not just going to fall into your lap as a map you have to go out find the map get lost a couple of times but eventually you will get to your desired destination. I have realized that our brains are way more powerful than we think and really can really get us into some trouble. But in retraining our brain we can be more successful than we have ever imagined.
    Good Luck FAPSTRONAUTS
    Thank you if anyone actually reads all of this and I am here for anyone who doesn't feel as if they have someone to talk to.
     
  2. Slime___bucketz

    Slime___bucketz Fapstronaut

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    Thank you for this post!!

    I have been using porn for about 8 years now. On and off. Like you, I have a social life, went to college etc. even more, ive actually had sex with a decent amount of girls and had a couple relationships. But something was always wrong. I was hiding my insecurities and loneliness through porn addiction. It actually got so bad I would leave hangouts with ppl early cause I felt insecure and just wanted to relax and masterbate. Wierd. Thank you for this post. Started my journey last week. Wish me luck
     
  3. Ugh yeah I can relate... I wish that I could stop thinking so grossly about people... It's so hard :(
     
  4. 4eyedfox

    4eyedfox Fapstronaut

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    Best of luck to you and I know that if you are anything like me even though you are able to "pull girls" the little you in the back of your head is never satisfied. You can get through this!
     
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  5. 4eyedfox

    4eyedfox Fapstronaut

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    I read something about how you cant change the way your mind thinks instantaneously and you have to know that what your subconscious mind thinks about does not define you. Don't be ashamed of the way your brain works just work on training it to be the way you want it to be.
     
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  6. Hmm.. Interesting. Do you want to send me what you read?
     

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