Epsilon guy
Fapstronaut
When i say last chance, i don't mean that i'm going to stop doing it if i don't achieve what a want with it, but I won't see it as that “magical” thing I see in different posts that solves people's lives. Nor will I be obsessed with it in the sense of thinking that every drop of semen that is spilled that is not for creating offspring is a wasted drop. Which, by the way, right now I do think that way, and I still have hope that this practice is that magical practice that I keep reading about in posts and seeing in YouTube videos that greatly improves people's lives. I still have hope, but I'm starting to get tired.
In this thread, I'm going to tell my story and share my progress with this practice. Right now, I'm on day 76, and I'll continue to gradually update you on my experience as I move forward. But it won't be a daily update; rather, it will be every few days, since I've been down this road many times before, and from day 76 to day 77, there's really no change... If there are changes, they come with the passage of time.
Let me tell you about myself. I am a 29-year-old man, and I started masturbating when I was 10 years old. For years, during my teenage years, I could masturbate up to three times a day. When I started college at 18, I reduced the frequency, but I still masturbated an average of once a day.
At around 21, I learned about nofap. The problem is that at first I didn't take it very seriously and thought it was just a placebo, so during those years, although I reduced my masturbation frequency a little more, sometimes I would go back to it with a vengeance and wasn't consistent. It was when I was 24 that I learned about semen retention. I started watching a lot of videos, learning more about it, and realizing that many of the problems I had suffered in my life could have been caused by this bad habit. I really started to believe in it and take it more seriously.
I have several health problems that I will now list, and I want to make something very clear before mentioning them. No one else in my family has these problems, and I have always had very healthy habits (except for masturbating). It is important to mention this to make it clear that, in theory, no, I do not have any of these problems “because of genetics,” or “because I smoke,” or “because I don't exercise,” or “because I only eat processed foods.” All my relatives (brother, parents, grandparents, cousins) are healthy and don't have any of these problems, and for my part, I have always eaten a healthy and varied diet and exercised moderately. Let's see, it's impossible to do everything 100% right, but if I had to give myself an honest grade for how I've done things, I would give myself an 8/10. Here is my list of symptoms (which, over the years, I have also read about in multiple posts on semen retention, which are very typical of years of masturbation):
- Severe acne (now is better but when i was a teenager it was lethal)
- Seborrheic dermatitis (red skin in my face, dandruff)
- Hair loss
- Opened pores on my face
- Joint pain (it is true that i do weight training and that can cause that, but i do it very moderate and in a healthy manner and despite that, i have it)
- Back pain
- Acne scars
- Hemorrhoids or something similar to hemorrhoids
- Eye bags
- I wear glasses
- Fatigue and "depression" (not diagnosed but i have felt like shit emotionally for years)
- Losing a lot of friends and respect from my family and make me act weird and anti-social (whereas when I was a kid I was super outgoing and social)
And i think that is it. As i was saying, from 24 years old i have been practicing SR with streaks of 30, 90 and 180 days and of those symptoms, the back pain has improved a lot and also the acne, but acne has improved because i'm 29, not due to SR. In fact before starting SR my acne had already improved.
I started semen retention to improve all these symptoms and even cure myself completely, as I saw that there were people writing posts saying that they had been cured of all this. But the reality is that I have been doing this for years now, and although some of those symptoms have improved a little (such as seborrheic dermatitis), those improvements can be attributed to age and not to the practice itself, since it has not been a miraculous improvement or anything like that, and other symptoms such as hair loss and dark circles under the eyes have worsened.
Many people may tell me that I'm not doing something right: that I should be intermittent fasting, that I should only eat meat, that I should only eat fruit, that I'm having lustful thoughts. It's worth mentioning that I'm hardly “edging.” Obviously, I'm not perfect, and it's very difficult to be perfect, but as the years have gone by and I've gotten older, I've gotten better at controlling my lust, since my priority is to heal myself and find a woman to marry and give her a healthy man, not a sick man. And this is what hurts me and makes me sad, that I have been waiting for years for this to “cure” me so that I can move on with my life and give my future wife a healthy man, both physically and mentally, and the retention is not giving me what I expected it to give me.
And I'm tired of trying things: different diets, supplements like zinc, vitamin D3, magnesium, doing more cardio, trying to be super positive. I'm very tired, I just want to be calm, continue with the healthy habits I already have (not trying a thousand things that don't work) and see if this practice really improves things on its own. Because when I read that there are people who say, “No, you have to do X thing for it to work,” you're saying that the physical changes you've achieved haven't been due to the retention itself, but precisely because of those changes in habits, which may have been “prompted” by the retention. but what would have made you change would have been the habit itself (exercise, diet, etc.) and not semen retention. And then we would be saying that semen retention does not severely affect your health. And that's what I still don't want to believe; I want to continue believing in this.
Because when I'm doing this practice, I feel mentally/spiritually like I'm “doing the right thing.” When I see how badly people act in this world because of lust, with pedophilia, mass rapes of women, etc., and you start to see all this from the outside and you start to eliminate that lust, you feel like it's the right thing to do. But I'm tired of waiting, of having hope, and not seeing even the slightest sign of God, but rather everything going downhill.
The thing is, I've never given this a real chance to see its effects over a long period of time and see if it really heals me. So this time I'm going to do it for a whole year and see what happens. And I know that this time I'm not going to fail, because apart from all my previous experience, I'm at a point where I've hit rock bottom. I don't want to fail again and not know if it would have really worked or not. I want to give it a chance for a long time to see if it's as magical as they say on the internet and in old books. And if, at the end of the year, I haven't seen any improvement, I'll continue to practice semen retention, but it will be in a much more “normal person who doesn't believe in esoteric things” way. I would continue with my life, and if I have to have sporadic sex or whatever, I would do so without obsessing over it, because if doing it obsessively and believing in it doesn't work for me, then why continue with that plan? I am 100% committed to doing it perfectly, to giving this up in order to have children and only with your wife to bring you closer together and believe in God, but you have to prove to me that it really works. I can't trust something that doesn't give me tangible results.
So, as I said, I'm now on day 76, and maybe when I reach 100-something I'll update (if there's anything new to add). I'm going to keep trying my best, putting lust aside, eating relatively healthily, and exercising moderately.
I wonder how many people are in a similar situation to mine.
Best regards, I will keep you updated.
In this thread, I'm going to tell my story and share my progress with this practice. Right now, I'm on day 76, and I'll continue to gradually update you on my experience as I move forward. But it won't be a daily update; rather, it will be every few days, since I've been down this road many times before, and from day 76 to day 77, there's really no change... If there are changes, they come with the passage of time.
Let me tell you about myself. I am a 29-year-old man, and I started masturbating when I was 10 years old. For years, during my teenage years, I could masturbate up to three times a day. When I started college at 18, I reduced the frequency, but I still masturbated an average of once a day.
At around 21, I learned about nofap. The problem is that at first I didn't take it very seriously and thought it was just a placebo, so during those years, although I reduced my masturbation frequency a little more, sometimes I would go back to it with a vengeance and wasn't consistent. It was when I was 24 that I learned about semen retention. I started watching a lot of videos, learning more about it, and realizing that many of the problems I had suffered in my life could have been caused by this bad habit. I really started to believe in it and take it more seriously.
I have several health problems that I will now list, and I want to make something very clear before mentioning them. No one else in my family has these problems, and I have always had very healthy habits (except for masturbating). It is important to mention this to make it clear that, in theory, no, I do not have any of these problems “because of genetics,” or “because I smoke,” or “because I don't exercise,” or “because I only eat processed foods.” All my relatives (brother, parents, grandparents, cousins) are healthy and don't have any of these problems, and for my part, I have always eaten a healthy and varied diet and exercised moderately. Let's see, it's impossible to do everything 100% right, but if I had to give myself an honest grade for how I've done things, I would give myself an 8/10. Here is my list of symptoms (which, over the years, I have also read about in multiple posts on semen retention, which are very typical of years of masturbation):
- Severe acne (now is better but when i was a teenager it was lethal)
- Seborrheic dermatitis (red skin in my face, dandruff)
- Hair loss
- Opened pores on my face
- Joint pain (it is true that i do weight training and that can cause that, but i do it very moderate and in a healthy manner and despite that, i have it)
- Back pain
- Acne scars
- Hemorrhoids or something similar to hemorrhoids
- Eye bags
- I wear glasses
- Fatigue and "depression" (not diagnosed but i have felt like shit emotionally for years)
- Losing a lot of friends and respect from my family and make me act weird and anti-social (whereas when I was a kid I was super outgoing and social)
And i think that is it. As i was saying, from 24 years old i have been practicing SR with streaks of 30, 90 and 180 days and of those symptoms, the back pain has improved a lot and also the acne, but acne has improved because i'm 29, not due to SR. In fact before starting SR my acne had already improved.
I started semen retention to improve all these symptoms and even cure myself completely, as I saw that there were people writing posts saying that they had been cured of all this. But the reality is that I have been doing this for years now, and although some of those symptoms have improved a little (such as seborrheic dermatitis), those improvements can be attributed to age and not to the practice itself, since it has not been a miraculous improvement or anything like that, and other symptoms such as hair loss and dark circles under the eyes have worsened.
Many people may tell me that I'm not doing something right: that I should be intermittent fasting, that I should only eat meat, that I should only eat fruit, that I'm having lustful thoughts. It's worth mentioning that I'm hardly “edging.” Obviously, I'm not perfect, and it's very difficult to be perfect, but as the years have gone by and I've gotten older, I've gotten better at controlling my lust, since my priority is to heal myself and find a woman to marry and give her a healthy man, not a sick man. And this is what hurts me and makes me sad, that I have been waiting for years for this to “cure” me so that I can move on with my life and give my future wife a healthy man, both physically and mentally, and the retention is not giving me what I expected it to give me.
And I'm tired of trying things: different diets, supplements like zinc, vitamin D3, magnesium, doing more cardio, trying to be super positive. I'm very tired, I just want to be calm, continue with the healthy habits I already have (not trying a thousand things that don't work) and see if this practice really improves things on its own. Because when I read that there are people who say, “No, you have to do X thing for it to work,” you're saying that the physical changes you've achieved haven't been due to the retention itself, but precisely because of those changes in habits, which may have been “prompted” by the retention. but what would have made you change would have been the habit itself (exercise, diet, etc.) and not semen retention. And then we would be saying that semen retention does not severely affect your health. And that's what I still don't want to believe; I want to continue believing in this.
Because when I'm doing this practice, I feel mentally/spiritually like I'm “doing the right thing.” When I see how badly people act in this world because of lust, with pedophilia, mass rapes of women, etc., and you start to see all this from the outside and you start to eliminate that lust, you feel like it's the right thing to do. But I'm tired of waiting, of having hope, and not seeing even the slightest sign of God, but rather everything going downhill.
The thing is, I've never given this a real chance to see its effects over a long period of time and see if it really heals me. So this time I'm going to do it for a whole year and see what happens. And I know that this time I'm not going to fail, because apart from all my previous experience, I'm at a point where I've hit rock bottom. I don't want to fail again and not know if it would have really worked or not. I want to give it a chance for a long time to see if it's as magical as they say on the internet and in old books. And if, at the end of the year, I haven't seen any improvement, I'll continue to practice semen retention, but it will be in a much more “normal person who doesn't believe in esoteric things” way. I would continue with my life, and if I have to have sporadic sex or whatever, I would do so without obsessing over it, because if doing it obsessively and believing in it doesn't work for me, then why continue with that plan? I am 100% committed to doing it perfectly, to giving this up in order to have children and only with your wife to bring you closer together and believe in God, but you have to prove to me that it really works. I can't trust something that doesn't give me tangible results.
So, as I said, I'm now on day 76, and maybe when I reach 100-something I'll update (if there's anything new to add). I'm going to keep trying my best, putting lust aside, eating relatively healthily, and exercising moderately.
I wonder how many people are in a similar situation to mine.
Best regards, I will keep you updated.
moreover none of my family has this, so it would be kind of strange that just me is "allergic" or "intolerant" to any of those things, but everything is possible i guess.
