This may help HOCD

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by MrAlkali, May 31, 2020.

  1. MrAlkali

    MrAlkali Fapstronaut

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    Okay so I have and am currently struggling with HOCD. It is hard for me but I wanted to try something for you guys to see if you could use this as help. At the moment it isnt easy for me so I decided to put myself through something hard just to report bad.
    Basically I looked at a few pictures of good looking men, leonardo dicaprio etc. (I am not gay before we start) and then came onto pornhub and looked at a thumbnail of a guy nailing a girl and felt ishy turned on but very anxious (I didnt get hard only a semi) and then waited a while. I went back on to porn hub and watched a lesbian video and got really rock solid and njoyed it. I didnt masturbate cause i didnt want to make matters so much worse. I then went back onto the pictures and stuff I felt before with the previous men. This proves that its porn induced and your anxiety which can cause arousal. Its also about getting bored and wanting more and seeing the penis as a pleasure thing. Trust me you arent gay, i am not gay and if you were who would honestly care. Just avoid porn from now on, Thats what i plan to do
     
  2. iwontfail67

    iwontfail67 Fapstronaut

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    I watched alot of extreme porn involving 10:1 guys:girl ratios. Now my brain responds, against my will, to pictures of penis's alone, but when a naked man is shown I feel disgusted. I believe years of reinforcing my sexual reward circuits to respond to straight videos that are filled with d**ks has conditioned my brain to respond to that crap. I relapsed today because of this but during that relapse, I realised how obvious it was. Theres nothing physically attractive about a penis lol. I was simply unknowingly conditioning myself to it while watching videos of girls in extreme situations.
     
  3. MrAlkali

    MrAlkali Fapstronaut

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    exactly, the penis has been associated with pleasure cause it makes the girl feel so good at the end, stay away from porn and the thoughts will fade and deteriate. Ive still got thoughts but they are going away slowly.
     
  4. iwontfail67

    iwontfail67 Fapstronaut

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    It sucks that this has happened but fuck at least we have figured out why its happening to us. I feel bad for the people who have acted out because of porn escalation and end up being mentally tortured for their entire life. I don't think I could live with myself knowing that I did something that was the complete opposite to who I am. I couldnt look at a single child photo of myself again without feeling like I let that kid down.
     

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