This Shit Screwed Me Up; Now It's Time To Say Bye!

Hi.

I'm a newbie here, but not a newbie to the nofap goal. I've been trying to get away from this stuff since I first got hooked on it, sneaking into the basement as a preteen. A few times (especially for part of 2007, 2009, 2012, and last year) I thought I had escaped, but the neropathways were too well worn, and invariably something would happen (usually a breakup) that would plunge me into a depression, and after the first relapse, I'd be at it with a vengence.

But the funny thing is that when I did get out of it for a time, everything became wonderful. After a week or two of nofap, I would feel healthy and happy. I would have no interest in porn and real interest in girls. I would start moving around and accomplishing things.

Last year, after 4 months free, no problem, I got into a bit of an emotionally bad place, and suddenly I'm feeling weak and next comes PMO

Earlier this year, something changed. I dealt with whatever was going on inside, and I gained a new resolution. So maybe it's only been 21 days, but I know that every day resets me a bit more. I can begin to feel energy again. I feel powerful, on top of things, and loving, rather than weak, miserable, and stressed. I'm resolved to not go back, cause I know how much those pathways have been worn, and how dangerous it is for me to go back again, and, besides, I want to feel strong, not weak.

 

I'm gonna start out the 90 day challenge, and we'll go from there.