This summers gonna hurt like a MF

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Kingchef, Apr 20, 2019.

  1. Kingchef

    Kingchef Fapstronaut

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    Hey what’s up everybody. I’m 27 and I’ve been jerking it for years ! I can’t remember when i started. Hell I can’t remember why I even got addicted in the first place but it happened before I even realized it. I didn’t have sex until I was 19 for the first time and it was with my now ex wife. But before her, my sexual fantasies wouldn’t allow me to have sex I guess. Put it this way I lost my virginity at the movies cause I’m that moment The feeling of maybe being seen got me going lol. Anyway I don’t think I realized I needed to quit PM until about a couple of years ago when I was with this really hot chick and nothing happened no arousal, I felt ashamed but I didn’t think it would happen again. It did and it sucked. I also found out that I have an STD which sucks so now I have anxiety from that and from PIED. I thought I probably won’t have sex again. I can’t be tricky dick Nixon and have an STD. lol to my credit tho I did help make some babies when I was sexually active. Since I split with my ex that’s when it all spiraled outta control. I PMO’d sooooo much in the morning, at work, after work, in the shower. Wherever I could find space to I would or at least watch porn. I’ve tried to quit before but I end up falling back into it. The longest I’ve lasted was about 2 weeks and that was just without O. I still would tease myself I guess to see if I could overcome it by watching it and not full on jerking off. Idk why I thought I could reverse psychology myself lol. This will mark the first time in a long time I went without porn. The first being basic training in which I didn’t watch porn or masturbate for about 5-6 months. Truly amazing. I want to hit that goal again. I’ve been back to working out and eating somewhat right. I honestly just want to go back to having sex again with a beautiful woman to probably spend forever with. This is the one addiction I never thought I would’ve had. Sad thing is too is that ima good looking guy I should’ve been slaying left and right growing up but porn had those angles lol. Anyway I’m rambling but I starting this journey again I’m currently on day 5 wooohooo!!! I know in my bones that if I go the whole month without PMO. It’ll be a smooth ride to 90 days. I just wish I would’ve started at the beginning of the year like I had intended. I would be 90+ days in by now but it’s cool better late than never. I plan on making my 30’s my 20‘s and it starts with this beginning journey. Thanks for letting me put together this unorganized ramble.
     
  2. Raging Bull

    Raging Bull Fapstronaut

    this is a great website man, and I think you can accomplish your goals of quitting porn, it takes determination and dedication and grit. one day at a time tho. let's do this.
     
  3. Welcome to the community, keep reading and learning and strengthen your plan. You will make your goal.
     
  4. Kingchef

    Kingchef Fapstronaut

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    Thanks guys I appreciate the feedback. Keep kicking ass with y’all goals as well
     

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