This summers gonna hurt like a MF

Hey what’s up everybody. I’m 27 and I’ve been jerking it for years ! I can’t remember when i started. Hell I can’t remember why I even got addicted in the first place but it happened before I even realized it. I didn’t have sex until I was 19 for the first time and it was with my now ex wife. But before her, my sexual fantasies wouldn’t allow me to have sex I guess. Put it this way I lost my virginity at the movies cause I’m that moment The feeling of maybe being seen got me going lol. Anyway I don’t think I realized I needed to quit PM until about a couple of years ago when I was with this really hot chick and nothing happened no arousal, I felt ashamed but I didn’t think it would happen again. It did and it sucked. I also found out that I have an STD which sucks so now I have anxiety from that and from PIED. I thought I probably won’t have sex again. I can’t be tricky dick Nixon and have an STD. lol to my credit tho I did help make some babies when I was sexually active. Since I split with my ex that’s when it all spiraled outta control. I PMO’d sooooo much in the morning, at work, after work, in the shower. Wherever I could find space to I would or at least watch porn. I’ve tried to quit before but I end up falling back into it. The longest I’ve lasted was about 2 weeks and that was just without O. I still would tease myself I guess to see if I could overcome it by watching it and not full on jerking off. Idk why I thought I could reverse psychology myself lol. This will mark the first time in a long time I went without porn. The first being basic training in which I didn’t watch porn or masturbate for about 5-6 months. Truly amazing. I want to hit that goal again. I’ve been back to working out and eating somewhat right. I honestly just want to go back to having sex again with a beautiful woman to probably spend forever with. This is the one addiction I never thought I would’ve had. Sad thing is too is that ima good looking guy I should’ve been slaying left and right growing up but porn had those angles lol. Anyway I’m rambling but I starting this journey again I’m currently on day 5 wooohooo!!! I know in my bones that if I go the whole month without PMO. It’ll be a smooth ride to 90 days. I just wish I would’ve started at the beginning of the year like I had intended. I would be 90+ days in by now but it’s cool better late than never. I plan on making my 30’s my 20‘s and it starts with this beginning journey. Thanks for letting me put together this unorganized ramble.

 

Thanks guys I appreciate the feedback. Keep kicking ass with y’all goals as well