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I just signed up for this website after failing a countless amount of times to stop watching pornographic material. It all started approximately 9 years ago when I was around 13 years old; I was introduced to porn/masturbation in middle school. Ever since then, I would watch porn/masturbate in order to tackle sexual urges, combat stress and just out of plain boredom. In the beginning and even to this day, I was never a fan of hardcore porn, although I would resort to watching it at times; I would prefer watching softcore such as Playboy and Twistys. Unbeknownst to be, it became a severe addiction over the years. I was not able to realize the impact that it had on my life until I started seriously practicing my religion. Even prior to becoming practicing, which was about 4 years ago, I had tried to quit a few times but only half-heartedly.
Pornography and even masturbation have had a very negative impact on my life. It has prevented me from living my life to my full potential and has hindered my growth as a person. It has limited me in my ability to achieve my goals, and has caused me to be attatched to something that I actually hate. It is no longer that I watch it out of mere desire or temptation, I find myself watching it even when I really don't want to; it is as if it's just compulsive behaviour and apart of my daily routine.
I have told a few people that I am close to about my addiction, after which they would normally offer some words of advice. However, they would not follow up with me on what I told them as I believe that they were uncomfortable with the topic. One of my teachers however, has been relatively more helpful as he has talked to me in depth about the issue and its solution several times.
The longest period in which I abstained from pornography or masturbation was a period of 2 months. I have stopped for shorter periods such as a week or two several times, however the withdrawal symptoms such as frustration, agitation, headaches, lethargy and mind cloudiness get so severe that I always end up relapsing.
I am looking forward to being able to interact with the community here on NoFap and to hearing some of your stories. I really hope this helps me get clean, and not just for a month or two, but forever. It won't be easy, as experience tells me, but it's the tough battles that make the soldiers. Please support me on my journey and I will make sure that I help wherever possible as well.
We won't back down !
I just signed up for this website after failing a countless amount of times to stop watching pornographic material. It all started approximately 9 years ago when I was around 13 years old; I was introduced to porn/masturbation in middle school. Ever since then, I would watch porn/masturbate in order to tackle sexual urges, combat stress and just out of plain boredom. In the beginning and even to this day, I was never a fan of hardcore porn, although I would resort to watching it at times; I would prefer watching softcore such as Playboy and Twistys. Unbeknownst to be, it became a severe addiction over the years. I was not able to realize the impact that it had on my life until I started seriously practicing my religion. Even prior to becoming practicing, which was about 4 years ago, I had tried to quit a few times but only half-heartedly.
Pornography and even masturbation have had a very negative impact on my life. It has prevented me from living my life to my full potential and has hindered my growth as a person. It has limited me in my ability to achieve my goals, and has caused me to be attatched to something that I actually hate. It is no longer that I watch it out of mere desire or temptation, I find myself watching it even when I really don't want to; it is as if it's just compulsive behaviour and apart of my daily routine.
I have told a few people that I am close to about my addiction, after which they would normally offer some words of advice. However, they would not follow up with me on what I told them as I believe that they were uncomfortable with the topic. One of my teachers however, has been relatively more helpful as he has talked to me in depth about the issue and its solution several times.
The longest period in which I abstained from pornography or masturbation was a period of 2 months. I have stopped for shorter periods such as a week or two several times, however the withdrawal symptoms such as frustration, agitation, headaches, lethargy and mind cloudiness get so severe that I always end up relapsing.
I am looking forward to being able to interact with the community here on NoFap and to hearing some of your stories. I really hope this helps me get clean, and not just for a month or two, but forever. It won't be easy, as experience tells me, but it's the tough battles that make the soldiers. Please support me on my journey and I will make sure that I help wherever possible as well.
We won't back down !
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