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Time to Call It Like It Is, No Sugar Coating - Complete Exposure

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Once&4ALL, Jul 2, 2014.

  1. Once&4ALL

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    Thanks for the reminder Richard. I will have beat my first streak as of bedtime tonight, if I stay on a high state of alert - you can bet I am going to! I had sex with my wife last night, with a woodie, but no O - for guys new to nofap, this is exactly how serious the damage can be - couldn't get an erection that could penetrate "well" for a few months - nothing like having to coax your dick when the one you love is ready to go and then not being able to stay hard. Over the last two months, PIED (porn induced erectile dysfunction) is serious shit that communicates to your partner that "you just aren't turning me on". Put the shoe on the other foot and see how you would like that message being conveyed to you - the point should be clear. Then, after some recovery and healing (from not touching my junk except to wash or pee, and to make sure it is still "alive" at times LoL), I can now get a boner but because I my penis so desensitized from excessive and death grip masturbation, along with my brain from porn use, now I can emotionally joy intimacy, but I can't get off. However, those ahead of me in the reboot tell me I we'll get back to normally eventually. The lesson to be learned is that the sooner you stop PMO, the sooner you get your body back the way it was designed to be! I've been blessed to get to 16 days, but my reboot is not complete, as expected. Therefore, I will now change my goal to 32 days for small, achievable objectives that don't seem impossible. I am praying for each of you that I have the pleasure of connecting with here. No matter what are individual goals are, we are all working toward the common goal of conquering PMO in our lives. Thanks for reading my blog and for your support. It is easy to see why we all failed before without this community. God bless to all!
     
  2. Once&4ALL

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    I want to plant a seed as a reminder to all of us if we have a reset:

    After a reset, making you feel weak, worthless, embarrassed, etc., are other products of PMO, making us feel guilty and weak because we fell for it again. The best defense IS a good offense. You know that you aren't any different than the rest of us - we all have been there. You need to remember that your are a valuable, worthy person who has friends and family that care about you. PMO is the piece of shit, not you. It feeds on our male sex drive so very well. But, your dick is yours, for pleasure with another human being in a loving relationship. It IS NOT your brain's private sex toy to get a dopamine fix! If you let it shame you into hiding, you are letting it win. WE, your friends here, will be your friends EVERY DAY and we won't leave you behind, no matter what. ON THE OTHER HAND, PMO will treat you likes its bitch to get its fix, will hate you when you don't use, and try to deceive you at every turn. If you aren't here safe with us and able to be encouraged, PMO will own you...please don't stay off this site because of a reset!
     
  3. Once&4ALL

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    Hanging tough with a bit of a bonus going on. Due to an injury, I'm now on Percocet for pain. That gives me total ED during the time I'm taking them, and for a few days after. So, since I'm stuck at home all by myself, I'm investing a lot of time here, trying to encourage our newbies and those struggling. I also don't want to be tempted to look just because I am totally disabled - I know my brain is still looking for a weak link in the armor. Hang tough my friends! Thanks for reading.
     
  4. Sakamoto

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    Once&4ALL, thank you for your diligence in the encouragement with your life story and the progress reports. It feels wonderful to know that I am not alone in this fight, and with the grace of God, I have connections with people who can give me the strength to fight on. As a new fapstronaut (meaning to become one before, but haven't followed through for so long), I want to say that your words are encouraging as well as hope-inspiring.

    Keep fighting the good fight.
     
  5. Once&4ALL

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    Sakamoto, thanks for reading and welcome! Congrats on making the jump start. I'll watch for your posts.
     
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    Another quiet day on bed rest for an injury. Back to work tomorrow, still in flatline with ED from pains making it double down. It's great insurance lol, but I don't recommend spraining your back to get the meds. Watch those planks in the workouts - they'll get you!
     
  7. Refresh

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    Keep going my friend. If you believe you will beat this addiction! I read in your inital post that you have a wife -> It might be great help to fight against porn. However, be careful, each sex with your woman may cause stronger cravings for porngraphy & masturbation in the next days... At least it is in my case. Once again, Good Luck!!
     
  8. Once&4ALL

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    Refresh, thanks for warning. The chaser effect HAS been strong, but wading through it. Back to work and off pain meds, so will have to be watchful once the drug's ED effect has worn off. I expect the urge wii be quite strong. I have noticed that my junk looks fuller, meatier having been left alone except for a couple opportunities with my wife. In fact it is also more perky also - underwear bulges out further. Not bragging, just giving validation to what others have noticed/reported about their junk also being fuller/larger without constant wanking. Hope this gives others another notch of motivation to use in their journey/fight against PMO. Keep up the good fight fellas!
     
  9. Once&4ALL

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    All is well fellas...the weekend is here. Going strong. Have a great won and watch your backs...the PMO wench is lurking around here, and probably there, waiting to corner us!
     
  10. Once&4ALL

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    I relapsed today because I allowed my fucked up brain to walk me right down to the edge, and push my ass over the side. I have no excuses...it was a complete failure on my part. I have to get bullet proof on this. Time to kill without a plan or the motivation to stop it. This is enemy's best weapon. Watch your six Fellas, PMO is out looking for another victim.
     
  11. Refresh

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    I also relapsed, my friend. For reasons similar to yours. Now, the most important is to make a conclusions.
     
  12. Once&4ALL

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    Refresh, at least I am in good company. Since we're restarting at the same time, let's make a point to keep up with each others journey from here.

    The back injury kept me from working out for a week, while the meds kept urges away. Then I started feeling better, hornier and in spite of my wife taking good care of me, I had an opportunity and I TOOK it. The upside, is that I now can get to 23 days for sure, which means I will get further next time. Onward and upward everyone...let's stay busy, in control and kick the shit out of PMO this round! I'm in, weapons hot (means I'm going to kill the SOB if I ever get a clean shot)!
     
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    Man, kind of quiet around here. I hope everyone is doing well. Back to the weekend again, the most dangerous days for me. Got plenty to do with getting my hobbies back in gear, working out again and plenty of activities planned. Kind of lukewarm the last few days about life in general, maybe a little bit of depression and frustration. Busting out of that. Need to get back to high speed, low drag and putting bombs on the target. Here's to a terrific NoFap weekend!
     
  14. Once&4ALL

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    Made it through Friday unscathed...looking for the same today. Off to a family birthday party and dinner. Will hit the gym when I get home and hit the hay. Have a great day fellas!
     
  15. Once&4ALL

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    Hope you all are doing well. Have been away for a while, slipping in and out of the program. Am getting re-motivated and back in the fight. I have a local friend I've know for many years - we're going to be working this program together for accountability. With him, and Time4aChange, I believe there is a serious progress to be made for all three of us. I'm hoping that eyeball to eyeball accountability will help close the gap in the armor I still have 4 months after really deciding to quite PMO. God Speed to everyone!
     
  16. DonkeyKong22

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    Once and 4 all . Smash it mate. Dig deep
     
  17. DonkeyKong22

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    Congrats on 7 days mate. Your first week of being completely PMO free. Ever 7 days is a private goal for me. Because it's another week I haven't wasted on porn. And the fist week after a relapse is a real bitch.
    DK22
     
  18. Once&4ALL

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    DK,

    You've got that right...especially getting through a weekend. This is Day 2 and I am feeling more committed, stronger and more determined that I have in the past. Yesterday was my wife's birthday. I am going to give the best of me, which doesn't include PMO. Hang tough fellas!
     

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