Time to Move On

Hello Everyone,

I have always been acutely aware of what I can do to better myself and what I believe is right, but the past few years have been so tumultuous that I've allowed myself to adopt a bit of a victim mindset. I've succumbed to porn and masturbation addiction and have taken part in stupid, mindless flings and relationships that I know I'm above allowing myself to get into. Along with this (it's too easy to say that it has been an outcome as all of it is somewhat connected), I have lost confidence, have let my emotions and thoughts to control my actions and behavior, and have lost track of my values and the ability to uphold them in the face of adversity. I know what I am capable of and who I am, and right now I am not that person.

A long time ago when things were a little more simplistic, it was easier for me to do what I really believed in. Once upon a time I had committed to month to year long streaks of no PMO and at certain times even refrained from dating entirely, but after passing through some of the trials associated with becoming a man, I lost my way. It has taken me a long time to get back, but I'm getting there slowly and it's time to take one of the most necessary steps that I have been scared of taking: no porn, no masturbation and no sex. I know what it is like to have willpower and I am going to get it back so that I can move on to becoming what I know I can be.

I am looking forward to contributing to the community and hope that I will be able to give back! Thanks in advance for all the help I know I'm going to receive... because I think I'm gonna need it!

Here's to Day ninety,
Ender

 

I really appreciate all the motivation and help @Former_CD , @Protagoras and @Satchi

I think it is going to be a great few months