hey what's up lonely and depressed people out there? how are you? not great I assume. Anyway, after my fourth fap today I decided to post some thread in this section. For some reason, the loneliness section is the most attractive to me, I don't know maybe I find solace in the fact that there are fucked up people just like me. So, anyway, let's whine a little bit about my life. I'm a below-average male in most areas of life - fitness, women, social contacts and people skills, career - kinda ok. I fap every day for the past months and that's multiple times. I waste my time by not being as productive as I should be - play mostly video games, go out with my below-average friends work out just a little bit here and there not to become a fat fuck, but surely not to see some real gains, cuz who would want that right? I have a job that pays relatively well, but is incredibly stressful and challenging but pays well and I dread every time going to work. No woman in my life - not ever, no kiss no nothing. Quite sad I must say. The inability to attract the opposite sex speaks for itself - you are a failure. I'm not talking about sex, kissing, etc. just even a date which might lead to those things - not even a date. I fap cause I' me depressed I eat garbage foods cuz I'm depressed and I waste my free time cuz i'm depressed. And each day I say the next one I'm not gonna fall into that bad behavior and guess what - I do. I just don't feel like it, cuz I'm depressed. I mean those things are not hard I just don't do them. Can't put myself to it. and days go by and I get older and more sad and depressed and it's getting worse. It's like I'm not controlling my own actions most of the time. It's really hard being fulfilled and happy in our society and environment - everyone is isolated and cold, there are few meaningful conversations if any, when you are starting from 0 it's hard to get a house and support a family at the same time - a necessity for happiness in my opinion. I feel like going into the woods and buys a cheap house in there, the problem is you can't sustain yourself easily that way. unless you have some passive income maybe, and have very few expenses - no new car, TV, etc, no fancy stuff just the bare minimum for a comfortable life. And then again, what woman will be willing to live like this? Idk I'm just dreaming here haven't made any decision, even if I do it who knows i can be depressed again. If I'm a mess now who says that I won't be a mess when the environment changes? So, I'm pretty much stuck in a rut and can't stop myself, or have a lot of trouble doing so. Wonder if I'm ever gonna pull through.