I’m gonna try to make this simple... I’ve spent some time getting further and further away from porn. I’ve only watched it 2 times this month, comparatively I use to watch it every single day, multiple times a day. Right now I want to practice semen retention. But I have VERY strong sexual feelings for this girl that I work with. People have mentioned that she seems into me, but when I ask her out she says yes and gets excited, but never actually goes through with it!!! Thats annoying as all hell. I suppose that it’s good that I’m attracted to a real woman, instead of porn, but man I REALLY like her. For instance, when I’m aroused, I think about HER. When I see her, I get aroused! I’m very frequently thinking about her in non-sexual ways too, simply wondering about her and wanting to... I don’t know, give her the perfect date. Make her feel special. To an extent, this sort of attraction is actually one my goals in practicing semen retention... But at the same times it’s making NoFap VERY challenging. How in GODS NAME do I stop feeling this attraction so strongly, when some mornings I literally WAKE UP with the thought of having sex with her already in my mind???