Hello, I'm new here. 38yo female. Recently started watching porn but can't seem to stop. It's really all I do besides work. I lost my virginity young but haven't had sex in over 20 years. It used to not bother me, but now it's all I think about. I haven't been on a date or had a relationship in years. I'm terrified of men (past trauma), even though I desperately want a relationship. I told myself that I was a "born again virgin" but it seems absolutely ridiculous now. I'm not even sure if this site is for women... Just know that some women deal with the same things.