Tired of starting over again and again

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Liam_here, Feb 15, 2020 at 6:06 AM.

  1. Liam_here

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    In seriously fed up these go so slowly all my motivations every thing I did everyone I forced myself to not masturbate for last 15 days gone to vain I've literally tried everything can't go past 2 weeks I don't have a girlfriend infact I dnt have anyone to talk to no one to share anything that I'm going through I can't fucking study and I'm 18 now and in still stuck in 10 cuz I got failed 2 times I want to cry so fucking bad but I can't I can't feel saddeness or happiness all i need rn is peace social media is killing me and i can't live without it so plz don't tell me to delete Insta or fb cuz it also had good sides
    I'm constantly meditating taking cold showers everyday working out going for a run in morning and grooming myself but at the end of the day nothing really matters I also feel I'm getting ugly day by day but I'm hopeful but sometimes I feel that maybe god is not happy with me or he's upset but I'm trying to find peace my biggest trigger and it's the way I relapsed last 2 times is texting and then sexting a random girls on Insta talking with her and then trying to convince her to do a vid call but I don't fucking give up and keep texting countless girls sometimes I even go past 6 hours ik that's fucked up I seriously don't know what gonna happen to me
     
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  3. BravelyKegger

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    One thing I realized is it is going to be hard, when you get intense urges you want to give in and your mind wonders, no matter how hard you try it seems tomorrow will never come and the urges will never end, you Just have to accept one day at a time, fight one battle at a time, if you think about the end goal in those moments you will become overwhelmed, you must accept that you must survive day by day and you must be ready for that.
     
  4. Liam_here

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    I actually didn't have any urges and NoFap became easy but from last night I was having this urge and I gave in after u woke up
     
  5. BravelyKegger

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    You did have an urge and that is why you gave in, in that moment you chose to stop fighting and give in.
     
  6. Liam_here

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    I feel like shit because of that
     
  7. BravelyKegger

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    You must fight this one day at a time, start over now and make it the last time.
     
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  8. Control it man

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    see everyone has had hard days
    but giving up only takes you back to the first step and you lose you entire success of 10000 steps you have walked so far.
    see this is not an easy thing and never going to get
    i was also addicted and now i think have really gained control on my senses
    yes i and many others have had panic attacks just like you
    but remember the reason why you started to fight the addiction
    and go on dude
    problems come to only those who are ready for them
    so all the best
    and message me if required.
     
  9. Liam_here

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    Thanks bro appreciated
     
  10. ricardo1

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    hey man...u ARE ENOUGH!!!!U ARE MORE THAN ENOUGH TO FIGHT YOUR URGES!!!!
    RULE 1-dont act like victim of the circumstances...if u relapsed talk to urself in away that u had abad movie experience....(as guilty feeling is a trick played by ur mind)
    rule 2-Dont consider this as real hard fighting.actually u only avoid...so dont give too much importance even to the idea of u ARE A HARDCORE MASTERBATOR !!!!!!NO ...YOU ARE NOT....1 st u digest these ideas that understand what was an urge and ur consciuos activity during that time...Recongnise when were u compulsive and when were u conscious ...it may take time ...but u have go to the core to know,,,, why
     
  11. quit@porn

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    @Liam_here

    Hi Liam,

    I can understand if not able to reduce your pain. Liam when we are in this phase generally porn and masturbation is the Easiest escap and we tend to go for that.
    But, what's I liked most is that u atleast know that this is problem ( porn). So you are already one step ahead of many of the peers of yours.

    I could suggest what you could try some of the things.

    1. First and foremost don't go for big targets. Because the comparison at the end and result of failure highly demotivates us.

    So just try to do one day more that last streak just one day more. Believe me gradually that 1 day become 2-3 and week and things then onwards doesn't go linearly but exponentially.
    ( for example I could not even run 600 m at one time but today 10k also possible for me)
    so small is best. Incremental progress must be focus. :)

    2. Brother, one day take blank page and analyse your failing behavior. Say for example
    When generally you go for fapping time, situation location area like night time, in bed, when feeling lonely , after watching hot girl in social media etc.

    And after analysing these thing make counter for them. For example. When I am with my mobile in night alone on bed. I used to fail max. So what I chose , I don't keep my mobile access to me from 10pm to 7 am. ( I keep it in briefcase or in locker.
    Now even with my mobile with me my internal strength is enough to stop me watching porn.

    So analyse and make your own strategy.
    Whenever you found that this situation is going to lead for porn / fapping quickly take counter action which suits you.
    So change habit with another habit( good one)

    Don't give up social media but, reduce it and don't watch when you are alone.

    3. Read as many thing as possible about porn habits and all. This give you inner strength to counter it.
    Your brain at porn is good website.
    Nofap success stories are best and read how people are overcoming this addiction.

    4.express yourself on this forum. Peopel are helpful interact. When you find yourself weak use panic button...


    I hope this may help you and work for you.
    Best luck brother. Don't worry you will do it....... Have faith in yourself
     
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  13. 31Jan2020

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    Go to AA or SA if there are any nearby and get a sponsor. Where do you live?
    The meetings make you feel that you are not alone
     
  14. Liam_here

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    yeah i used to be harsh to myself and punish myslef earlier but now i give myself a little pep talk everytime i look at the mirror my streak actually becomes smooth but then after 14 days or something urgues strike in thats where the problem begins
     
  15. Liam_here

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    Thanks for the video brother will definately watch them and yeah i guess my problemis using mob late at night sometimes i evengo scrolling aimlessly until 4 am and after wakin up and before sleeping is the time when i usually relapse will do something simlar and have ano screen time and im gonna use this forum more and maybe start journaling Again bro thanks for your words
    God Bless!
     
  16. Liam_here

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    whats that bro>
     
  17. Alexander Babu

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    Hi.

    Let me help you with social media. I'm not going to tell you to uninstall Facebook and Instagram. Instead, do this. You unfollow each and every profile that triggers you, pages that are promoting nudity or half nudity. Make sure that there isn't even a single like this you're following. And instead of these pages, remember there are some good too in Instagram and Facebook. Follow them. Surround yourself with positive vibes. Read books. It's these small, simple things that change a person. Take it one step a day. Baby steps. You'll see improvements.

    If these do not convince you to give up porn, let me tell you my story. I was like you at 18. I was like you upto 21. Due to (not excessive) just normal masturbation, now I've this disorder called Phimosis. Now I can't literally have sex without Circumcision. And that circumcision will cost me almost $406.34. Something I can't afford right now. And I'm still a Virgin. Now, you give up porn before it's too late.
     
  18. 31Jan2020

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    Google Alcoholics Anonymous or Sexaholics Anonymous and go there
     
  19. Liam_here

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    Bro ain't no such thing here in Pakistan haha
     
  20. Liam_here

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    Bro let me share something so I blocked the girls which I used to talk with and when I had this urgue and unblocked her again and fucking texted her and vid called with her idk what the hell happens to me but for now I've deleted everything no social media but I just hope that I don't download it again then unblock and start texting and sexting btw thanks bro wish you luck finding somone who understands you and probably have sex with.
     

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