Tired of the guilt and shame .. my sorry so far..

Hey there,
im A 28 year old male who has a bad sex addiction, and I feel like I have reached my peak of my sex addiction I’ve been a slave of my addiction since I was a kid, it started with porn in movies on the internet etc, then it moved on to masterbating once a day to doing it atleast 5-7 times a day it kept on going and going and then it went to paying for sex ...from prostitutes in the street to escorts online , I would get a rush to drive around and see one and then feel so much shame and guilt after it was all over .. I couldn’t believe I was actually doing this ... I mean I always had girlfriends a loving home and a pretty good life but why did I have to go and pay for sex when I could easily do it with my girlfriend at the time I felt ashamed , but then in a week or 2 I would go and do it again , and all it gave me was bad anxiety I would go get tested for stds and stuff but always came clean ... at this point is I’ve hit rock bottom I’m tired of living in a lie I’m tired of the shame and guilt I’m tired of the porn and masterbating I just want to be in peace and move on from this shameful life

 

Thanks you and I really am ready !