Tired of the Same 4 Year Cycle - I WANT MY MOTIVATION BACK

Hi, My name is John and I have been stuck in the same porn cycle since 8th grade. It is my senoir year and I want to go onto my life without porn and have the same motivation I had before I started porn. Please help me reach the golden standard of 90 days so I can rebuild my social confidance and motivation. The longest I have gone before I found NoFap was 13 Days.

What I undergo weekly when trying.

I will decide usaully after friday night when I have jacked off that I want to stop porn. I typically have my last hoorah on saturday and then start in sunday

the first 2 days I feel like crap and then the 3rd day feels like magic

On the 3rd day I feel a surge of motivation and confidence

Then the 5th day I start to get intense urges and by the sixth or seventh day I am watching porn again and bust a nut and feel like shit.

I am so tired of the sh*t and would like any advice to stop.

Thank you,

John