It started yesterday, when I came back from the short vacation I had and had been full of energy. After the lunch break, I talked to a coworker for quite a long time in her room, even though I knew that she liked me and it could escalate. I don't want to be arrogant but I physically outmatch her, although I still found her somehow cute and she's the only single female who's around, plus she looks younger than (even) I do, even though she's older than me. So we chatted, even if she had told me, that she was in hurry. It didn't take long, until I started to lust after her. Later, I repented and went back to work. Today, I worked quite fast and had nothing else to do later on. So I went again to her, because she'd be the only one of those few who're working who could need some help. Instead of working, we started to discuss Mr Trump whom I was defending, although I've never been to the US yet and it's one of the easier ways to make enemies in this city. She got quite upset because I was questioning tons of things and she made unprofessional claims, even though she has a bsc degree in politology which isn't related to our work btw. After a while, we knew we had wasted our time and made a mistake. Still, I "helped" her for more than an hour without a bad intention, solved a problem she had, and then out of nowhere the sin thing came back. I completely lost my focus, and was just looking lustfully at her. She noticed that, started to smile a little bit and still was trying to explain me something quite complex (what the heck). I was just thinking about the very bad things we could do in no matter of time because we're the only ones who were still there. And if she had very different thoughts, she'd have left earlier. I had a bad feeling at the same time because I knew God wasn't with me anymore. Nevertheless, nothing worse happened because I was too passive and she was too shy and reserved. I told her I still wanted to stay before she left. Right away, I started to feel the self condemnation. I fell into a mini depression. Sat on a chair in the darkness and thought about my rebellion against my first Love for a while. I don't feel any condemnation anymore because I repented. Yet, I was too close to things I should have never thought of.