Today is Day 1 and here is my confession

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changerequired

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Some of you may have already read this because I posted it on Reddit today so I apologize if this is a reread for you but I am trying to get this all out on the table.
I am 29 years old and I am addicted to porn. There, I said it like it was my first meeting of AA. I have never been addicted to anything, not drugs, alcohol, gambling... anything. I wake up every single morning and FAP while watching porn. I don't like the person I am after I do it and I can not seem to stop. I have been with my wife for 15 years and I am still really attracted to her. I don't want to use her as a scape goat but my biggest problem is that she doesn't ever seem interested in having sex with me unless I beg for it. It makes me feel like I am undesirable. I know she loves me but it is so frustrating to be completely relying on someone for your sexual needs and they aren't interested. My wife has so many great qualities and I wouldnt trade one in for this lust that I feel. I consider myself a Christian but I know I am not acting like one. At the end of the day it is me who is the problem. I am the one who does the act, not her. I am the one who has to make this change because I am the only one who can control what I do with my body. I am a strong man and I will overcome this addiction. Today, it ends. Join me in the fight.
 
Hi, I find a lot of things in common with your story, the porn, the masturbation, the loving but uninterested with sex wife. I like you have spent a little to much time blaming her, and not realizing I am the problem. I am here to make a change. Like you I am a christian, and this has haunted me for nearly 20 years (I am 30, been struggling with this since around 11.)I want to change, I want to be porn free and fap free, for God, for my wife, and most of all for me. Glad to see someone else on this new journey with me. Keep at it man.
 
I'm the same, I used porn to fill the void that my fiancée left, but I know that porn makes things worse, the more you beg the more uninterested she will be, the more porn you watch the more you will beg for sex. Just remember, sex is optional, you don't need it like you need food and water to survive, I'm pretty sure if you tackle your porn problem you will change as a person and your wife will see this. All the best.
 
good luck ChengeRequired... i have been NoFap for 7 days now and it feels like a victory :-) i did visit a stripclub but didnt have an orgasm so maybe that doesnt count... i am 100% convinced that with NoFap, i will be more alert, more fit and a nicer person. and of course with the same or more libido for my wife. good luck !
 
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