Hi All, Today is my 50th day of no PMO. I need to confess, it has never been easy. I never ever thought I will make it thus far because my brain got hooked up with masturbation not just for sexual pleasure but also for stress release and taking this drug away from me was and still is very difficult for me. 2.5 years ago I decided to quit this addiction and I was very sincere about it, but I failed and I wouldn't pass just few days before I would relapse again. My mistake has always been that I want to quit this addiction with my efforts and my will power which off course is a recipe for failure. I had to understand the concept of surrender. I accepted that I am powerless over masturbation and my brain likes orgasm ( Step#1 of 12-steps recovery program) then I believed and internalized it that only God can rescue me from it ( Step#2 of 12-steps) and then I submitted my will to the will of God ( Step#3 of 12 - steps ) . Even though I am completing 50 days, but things are not rosy, I must not be complacent, inner addict is like a sleeping tiger, it will charge at any moment. Today however, was the worst day of these 50 days, I had a huge and massive craving to lust and jerk off but had to constantly surrender. But cravings keep coming to me, I am so afraid I really don't want to go back to that life style where I would jerk off and then feel crappy and then do whatever I can to feel good about myself, I want organic life and I know PMO is suffocating. Please chime in and share some words of encouragement if you can. Wishing peace and serenity to all of you!