Took Sister's Underwear

Good to hear that you've made such progress! You give us all hope for the future. The funny thing about all of this though, is that if we just stop watching porn, we will get better. It's such a simple idea, and yet it's so hard to really put into action. I think a real relationship has really motivated me to be better and leave this behind. True love, and care for one causes a new sensation, that is more powerful than these sexual urges. I want that. And we can all obtain it.

 

A good honest question. No, I don't really want to be that guy. But I'm very very attracted to women, which can cause such carefree actions when I'm turned on. The pleasure really wasn't necessarily from wearing it either. It was just the fact that it was women's underwear. Stupid, I know, but that's really where it came from. I wanted to be connected to a woman in some way, and I guess that was it.

 

You are absolutely right. The funny thing is that I know I am really a good person at my core. This world just twists me in ways that I could never have imagined. Porn is a perversion, it's weird on its own. I really feel like sexuality was never supposed to be like that. But it's hard to avoid the urge to do things differently, especially after the normal stuff gets boring.

I do believe that you're right though. My sister is a very fragile soul, and experiences intense anxiety and depression, and I don't think that any kind of confession would be good for her in any way. And if you knew my family situation, you would whole-heartedly agree. The sad thing is that I'm one of the few people in the family that she still trusts, and I betrayed that. It makes me sick. But I have to move on, forgive myself, and treat her just like I did before. And do nice things for her as well I like that idea.

Thanks for your advice man. It means a whole lot. I feel like I may be able to move forward from this.

 

I have been meaning to get away for sure. College would be nice, except for the fact that my classes are all online. But I'll do the best I can to stay off porn. If I can do that, I know for 100% sure, that it won't happen again.