Feeling angry and sad. Trying to figure out how best to bring up today. 7 days ago we had S. He O'd. 5 days ago we had S. I O'd (first time in awhile). No O for him. We tried again today. He was able to O but he was definitely having ED issues throughout, even at the start, and had to use his hands at a point or two. I had made my feelings on that clear and he was kind of trying to hide it I think. So I don't want to have S again for I don't even know how long. Either he is in a flatline - he thinks from meds reduction or something else is causing his ED. I want to be strong and blunt but I also just feel like crying. I think I'll try to calmly but assertively say that I didn't enjoy things today and that he knows how I feel about him using his hands. His need to O was apparently more important than my feelings and our progress. Not ok. So we should stop having S for, 2 weeks? 30 days? More? I'm hoping that confronting the issue will either force him to confess to Ming which wouldn't surprise me or to something else that might be causing this issue. If it's a meds related flatline, then we should abstain til he feels better and we can have better luck. If it's something else, well there's another nail in this ever closing coffin. Starting to not want S. I think I will tell him that too.