Totally fed up and exhausted with my failures in controlling myself against some evil genres of porn

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by chasinglife_99, Jul 4, 2019.

  1. chasinglife_99

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    I'm a 19 year old guy and I have a problem with this genre of porn called sissy hypnosis. To be honest I wouldn't even classify that one as porn , it's just rather total madness. I've known about sissy hypnosis for years now since i first discovered it. I don't consider myself as an addict to it .Although I was an addict to masturbation in a really bad way some years ago which led me to discovering this shit in the first place. My problem is that i cannot permanently leave this. Today i relapsed again after 45 days and watched sissy hypnosis and masturbated. The thing is that I've kept on relapsing to it after like a few months every time no matter how hard i try.

    I have researched so much about this stuff as well as masturbation and I've no doubt that sissy porn is indeed not just porn but the people making them indeed have many other evil motives about which if i start talking then i will have to make a separate long thread about it. This is the reason why it didn't affect me as bad it mostly does to people and in many cases makes them even change their sexuality completely. So it's obvious that I just want to be done with it forever . But this latest relapse has hit me really hard and I feel really depressed at the moment. I'm here to leave this forever and help people with all the knowledge i have about this if anyone wants to talk about this stuff related to porn or masturbation then they can hit me up.
     
  2. Rando115

    Rando115 Fapstronaut

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    Bro..quit that shit now!!!!!
    It's totally worth it.
    Am on day 60+ from shemale
     
  3. chasinglife_99

    chasinglife_99 Fapstronaut

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    Yup that's the plan. Just looking to finally stop this time.
     
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  4. kaylee time

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    I totally encourage you to write that long thread. Maybe not now but whenever you have urges and itll be something to occupy your time and combat the urge? Or just simply write it when you are feeling strong, that way when you are feeling the urges you can go back to your own thread and remember why youre on this journey. Either way, best of luck!
     
  5. 543hyz

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    Hello, I am also struggling with this I first discovered sissy hypno when I was a teenager I have gone months without watching it and I feel like myself again, and then when I relapse i feel so low and depressed this stuff is sinister and evil even worse you cannot talk to anybody about it which is why I made a account on here can anyone give me some tips to fully overcome this horrible thing. I would appreciate it.
     
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  6. Fightyourlowerself

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  7. Themadfapper

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    I think 3 months is the most common time for rewiring. It's not like you can never relapse after that, but that is when it gets easiest. It really is a mental disorder or addiction and it can be overcome, but you have to stop feeding the addiction.

    You've gone down a dark road with that sissy crap as you are getting off on masochism and going down that path will just get worse and worse and more confusing.

    I don't know exactly how harmful hypnosis and subliminal can be, but leaving your mind open to some stuff from strangers on the internet is not a good idea, and you know that stuff is filled with pure malice and filth. If you stay away from that stuff long enough you will wonder whatever attracted you to it and find it either funny or sickening.
     
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  8. chasinglife_99

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  9. Captain Cornelius

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    First of all, congratulations on the resolve to quit. That's very commendable and many people around the world think they won't 'have a problem.' It seems to me like you're not in denial and willing to receive needed help.

    I myself was captive to pornography for years and years and years (around 6 or so) and went from pictures to video to hardcore to shemale, beastiality and a bunch of other hellish, perverse, go-to-a-place-worse-than-jail worthy things. Really, it was a horrible, draining lifestyle ....

    And I partially agree with the above poster, in that I myself was open to hypnotism for a while, and allowed for many hurtful suggestions to come into me and make me a walking-talking temptation.

    Now, try to go back to the good of life you experienced before you did all this. Rome wasn't built in a day, so neither we're all these habits and desires also. These things are like wood for a big fire to be burned. Therefore, find someone genuinely encouraging, like on YouTube and see the good version of these things. That way you'll be getting healthy encouragement and not evil. Also, again, learn to encourage your own self, for you can become someone else's inspiration and reason to quit. Amen
     
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  10. 543hyz

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    Thank you everyone for the advice I really appreciate it
     
  11. Toys4

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    I have never heard about sissy hypnosis before, so I can't comment on it. But I think that its great that at 19 years old, you're able to think deeply about this and be honest about your struggles and seem able to see how bad that stuff is, and able understand that you want to leave that kind of stuff behind. When I was 19 I didn't get it. I figured if it was between consensual adults that it was okay, I wasn't able to wrap my mind around the complexities and how bad porn was. It was only when I got into my 30's that I start to understand and I still need help. I don't have much better advice at the moment, do you think you might need some outside support? I don't know if its very hard If you could get a professional to talk to or even something like a support group of some kind or even just a trust worthy friend to help you.
    godspeed!
     
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  12. keepitreal-88

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    It might be worth writing out what triggers this just to clear up how you think about it in your own mind and so you can have a concrete plan for when it comes up next time. It might also be worth practicing some acceptance too and reframing how you think about sissy hypnosis, I don't think we should repress stuff and hate ourselves for what we're trying to repress or it might leap up and catch you by surprise like it has been doing, instead we should change the way we think about it. We all have fetishes and fantasies that while they may be arousing to think about we wouldn't actually want to practice them in our normal lives. Maybe you could accept yourself and that you have some fetishes and that they tempt you because they're taboo and that its part of who you are and then agree with yourself that you don't want to practice it, because that's not who you really are, perhaps this might make it less tempting to pursue in the future.
     
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  13. ledener

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    I don't suffer from sissy, but as a biology graduation student I see all dependencies ocurring with similar paths: dopamine.

    cut the dopamine triggers and with more or less suffering, that shit will be rewired by your brain to a more natural behavior
     
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  14. 543hyz

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    What are the dopamine triggers?
     
  15. GREGOR hulse

    GREGOR hulse Fapstronaut

    I relapsed. Now I'm hopeless. I got 2 month streaks. Now I'm falling again and again. I'm really determined. But when comes the urge, my brain tells me I need it and persuade with some sh*t. Once I achieved 1 yearnd and four month streak. And now I can't get back on my feet. I'm really angry at me.
     
  16. 543hyz

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    Don't worry man
    Atleast your trying tomorrow is a new day to become a better person 4 months is better than daily or weekly so keep going
     
  17. GREGOR hulse

    GREGOR hulse Fapstronaut

    You've really encouraged me. But you get me somewhat wrong. Now I keep failing and relapsing 5 days in a row. I badly want up end it up.
     
  18. 543hyz

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    You'll get through it just get your mind in the right place first and keep busy it will get easier
     
  19. Rando115

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    Hooray!
     

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