Touched based yesterday with my long time ex.

It was very nice to hear from her. I asked God to give me a sign that day if I should remain in her life or let her go and then she runs into me!? Still unanswered prayer tho. She is doing her own thing and she is really happy! I told her about my progress with nofap and she wishes me the best and supports me 110%. Then we hugged for like two minutes really tight. Overall it was nice but at the same time I didn't tell her enough as she had somewhere to go. Still so many feelings for that girl man it's crazy.

 

Absolutely. It's my first major break up with my first love.

 

Update you guys, I was at her brothers house and she came by again. She honestly is just very happy doing her own thing man. Hanging out and having fun with friends. I feel happy for her man I really do. That made me get over her. I told her that Im still recovering and it won't be awhile until the real social butterfly within me blooms. Hopefully I'll be able to have a female companion pretty soon as I could use one for comfort.

 

I guess your right. She is still on my mind not even gonna lie. She is a free bird as I am here fixing myself and ridding this addiction. I think I've hit flatline cause I'm feeling very depressed and anxious suddenly. It's really draining me right now I wanna cry man.

 

Once I heal myself 100% I will ask her if she will give me another shot at proving I can win her heart again. Without porn and we can actually love each other genuinely and passionately.