Trans and Sissy porn has hijacked my life, is it too late to return?

James, it's time for you to create an official journal where you can share as much as you want, whatever you feel. Go to the Reboot Logs and find your age group and begin a thread which is your journal. Place a link here so that we can follow you and encourage you on your journey.

 

Check out In Case You Didn't Know for strategies and tips to help you along your journey.

 

I want to welcome you to NoFap where you are amongst friends who are here to encourage you and not judge you.

 

I'm more than happy to support you because I'm so very convinced you can do this. SO CONVINCED.

What's next? You probably know much better than me because you've been through this before. Maybe you should start thinking about what kind of guy you're going to be. You're not gonna be a huge tank, and while you do know that, it's important you know that's totally okay. It's not about some bullshit alpha male stereotype (that you see a lot here), it's about being your authentic self and maximizing what you have. You'll be much better than some douche alpha male.

Anyway, you could find some images of guys that you'd like to model, then take steps to get there. You can use your fashion knowledge to your advantage here to differentiate and be unique. A lot of K-pop singers are influenced by more feminine styles. G.Dragon, etc.

Anyway, you're going to be freaking unstoppable.

 

Do not allow yourself to be rushed into anything for anyone!

 

HI Jamie, really glad you found this place where you can share your story without being judged. TS people are judged a lot these days and I must say I'm guilty of that UNTIL I read your post. I've always wondered why TS is a thing and really learned something I never thought I would. I feel that I can better understand the pain/experiences you have to go through for you to become who you are today.

Well, what I want to say is really simple, the poll honestly does not and will not say much, because ultimately the one who decides anything and everything is you. I think the first thing you have to take note is why you want to go back to being a man. Or put it another way, why are you having so many doubts with your current self? If you think your way of life is best suited to being a woman, no one except you can stop you from being that. People like me will probably never understand since I've never been in that situation before, so don't let mean opinions from such people affect your way of life.

Also, notice how your profile picture and name is still all to the feminine side? What I can imply from this is that you like being a woman and the only reason you want to become a man now is because YOU are still in doubt. You are wondering what it is like to be a man, but honestly speaking no one can be of both genders at the same time. Biologically speaking you are a man, but it's what you think psychologically that truly matters. So never doubt your gender, only doubt your desires. Are you sure being a man is what you want? Or is it just purely out of curiosity?

In conclusion, do what you want, live life to the fullest. Also, please seek professional help too about your doubts. Take this seriously if you are serious about dealing with these doubts. Also, it seems that NoFap will now be of a different purpose to you, you are not rebooting, you are finding your true self.


GOOD LUCK! GOD BLESS~

 

Or maybe you thought you could troll by voting anonymously. You've been outed and your bitterness isn't contributing to the conversation. Back into your cave you go, little boy.

 

Peace be upon you.

James, first of all i appreciate your huge step towards finding the solution of your problem. You should never despair of the mercy of your Creator. You should keep in your mind that you were Created as a MAN not a WOMAN. Yes ,you are a MAN. But you should know that our creator didn't create us to play in this world. Surely, We are the best of his creation and He favour us by giving us the power of intellect.The ability to distinguish the good from the bad unlike other animals. James know this world life is nothing but a test for us. Our LORD create us to see who will do goods in this world life and who will do bad. He has Knowledge over all things.He knows their beggining and their ends. You are not too let. James, you were tested with your body like others are tested with their wealthies, children,wives, healthy etc. Your Lord tested you with the body that He gave you to see how you will appreciate his bounties, but unfortunately the SATAN (our biggest enemy) tricked you to disobey your creator by changing the creation that He created you in your mother's womb. Satan instilled his evil ideas into your mind and make you change your natural disposition. You are a MAN and this will never change till you die. All Human beings are sinners we are not perfect,our sins differ but Our LORD is the MOST MERCIFUL to his creations. He left open the door of repentance to the MANKINDS and the spirits (Jinns) .You have a chance to return back to your Lord in repentance and start a new page of your life.

Prophet Muhammad said:
"Indeed, Allah (GOD) is more happy with the repentance of His slave than a man who stops in a barren, desolate land; with him he has his riding animal. He then goes to sleep. When he wakes up, [he realizes that] his mount is gone. He searches for it until he is on the verge of dying. He then says, 'I will return to the place wherein I lost it, and I will die there.' He went to that place, and he was then overcome by sleep. When he woke up, his mount was [standing] right beside his head: on it was his food, his drink, his provisions, and the things he neded. Allah is more happy with the repentance of his believing slave than the aforementioned man when he finds his mount and his provisions."

[Ref: al-Bukhaari: 6308 ; Muslim: 2744]

I WELCOME YOU AND OTHERS TO EMBRACE THE FAITH ,THE RELIGION OF ISLAM.This is where you can find the real solution of your problems and true salvation.

 

Our LORD said the one who embrace Islam ,his past sins will be forgiven and he will be pure as he came out from his mothers womb. WELCOME TO ISLAM.

Before we cure any problem ,first we have understand ourselves who are we and were we came from ,why we are here and where are we going after death

 

Will Allah forgive our sins? Even if they are too many?

From Ibn Abbas -Radhi Allaahu anhu- said who said that the Messenger of Allaah -sallAllaahu alayhi wa sallam- said: that Allaah Azza wa Jal said:
'Whoever knows that I have the capability to forgive sins, then I will forgive him and not care, as long as he did not associate anything with Me.'

[Collected by Tabrani and Albaani declared it to be Hasan in Saheeh al-Jamia no. 4330]

Ibn Mas'ud narrated that the Prophet said:
"Indeed, Allah is more happy with the repentance of His slave than a man who stops in a barren, desolate land; with him he has his riding animal. He then goes to sleep. When he wakes up, [he realizes that] his mount is gone. He searches for it until he is on the verge of dying. He then says, 'I will return to the place wherein I lost it, and I will die there.' He went to that place, and he was then overcome by sleep. When he woke up, his mount was [standing] right beside his head: on it was his food, his drink, his provisions, and the things he neded. Allah is more happy with the repentance of his believing slave than the aforementioned man when he finds his mount and his provisions."

[Ref: al-Bukhaari: 6308 ; Muslim: 2744]

Anas (RA) said that he heard the Prophet (peace be upon him) say:
"ALLAH the Exalted said: "O son of Adam, so long as you call upon Me, and ask of Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds of the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I would forgive you. O son of Adam were you to come to me with sins nearly as great as the earth, and were you then to face me, ascribing no partner to Me, I would bring you forgiveness nearly as great as it (earth).'

[Ref: Hadith e Qudsi recorded in Al-Tirmidhi, Book 45, Hadith number 3540]

"and My Mercy embraces all things"

[al-A'raaf 7:156]

Say: O My slaves (humankind) who have transgressed against themselves! Despair not of the mercy of Allah Who forgives all sins. Lo! He is the Forgiving, the Merciful.

(Az-Zumar 39:53)

The Prophet said, "When Allah created the creatures, He wrote in the Book, which is with Him over His Throne: "Verily, My Mercy prevailed over My Wrath."

(Al-Bukhari)

In Saheeh Muslim it is narrated from Abu Hurayrah that the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: "Allaah has one hundred parts of mercy, of which He sent down one between the jinn, mankind, the animals and the insects, by means of which they are compassionate and merciful to one another, and by means of which wild animals are kind to their offspring. And Allaah has kept back ninety-nine parts of mercy with which to be merciful to His slaves of the Day of Resurrection."

[Muslim, al-Tawbah, 6908.]

It was narrated that 'Umar ibn al-Khattaab said: "Some prisoners were brought to the Messenger of Allaah (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him), and there was a woman among the prisoners who was searching (for her child). When she found her child she embraced him and put him to her breast. The Messenger of Allaah (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said to us, 'Do you think that this woman would throw her child in the fire?' We said, 'No, by Allaah, not if she is able not to.' The Messenger of Allaah (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said, 'Allaah is more merciful to His slaves than this woman is to her child.'"

[Agreed upon. Al-Bukhaari, 5653; Muslim, 6912.]

It is reported that a man came to 'Ali - Allah be pleased with him - and asked, "What do you think about a man who committed a sin?" He replied, "He must seek Allah's forgiveness and repent to Him." [The man] said, "He did that, but then sinned again?" [Ali] said, "He must seek Allah's forgiveness and repent to Him." The man again said, "He did that, but returned to sin". [Ali] said, "He must seek Allah's forgiveness and repent to Him." The man said for the fourth time, "He did, but then sinned again." Ali then said, "Until when?" Then he said, "He must seek Allah's forgiveness and repent to Him; and not give up until it is Shay?an who is defeated [overcome]."

[Ref: Hunad b. Al-Sari, Kitab Al-Zuhd article 910]

Ataa reported from Mu'aadh bin Jabl that the Prophet sallallahu alaihi wa sallam said: "(O people!) Keep your duty to Allaah and fear him as much as you can. And remember Allaah azza wa jal near every stone and tree (i.e. remember Allaah much). And if you committed a sin, follow it up with repentance - a secret (mistake to be repented) secretly; and an open (mistake to be repented) publicly."

[Reported by Imaam Ahmad in "al-Zuhd" (26) and Tabaraanee in "al-Mu'jam al-Kabeer" (20/159/331). Shaikh al-Albaanee said in al-Saheehah (3320): "the narrators of this narration are reliable, they are the narrators of al-Bukhaaree and Muslim; except for Shareek (one of the narrators) who is weak, and the chain is Mursal (broken) as 'Ataa did not meet Mu'aadh." This Hadeeth also has supporting chain which takes it to the level of "Hasan li ghairihee", see al-Silsilah (1475) ]

It is narrated on the authority of Ibn 'Abbas:
When this verse: "Whether you disclose that which is in your mind or conceal it, Allah will call you to account according to it" (ii 284), there entered in their (sahaabas) minds something (of that fear) such as had never entered their hearts (before). The Apostle (may peace be upon him) observed: Say: We have heard and obeyed and submitted ourselves. He (the reporter) said: Allah instilled faith in their hearts and He revealed this verse:" Allah burdens not a soul beyond its capacity. It gets every good that it earns and it suffers every ill that it earns. Our Lord, call us not to account if we forget or make a mistake. He the (Lord) said: I indeed did it (i.e accepted this supplication). Our Lord! do not lay on us a burden as Thou didst lay on those before us. He (our Lord) said: I indeed did it. And pardon us, have mercy on us. Thou art our Protector" (ii. 286). He said: I indeed did it.

[Sahih Muslim, Book 1, Hadith 229]

Allaah subhanahu wa ta'ala says: Except those who repent and believe (in Islaamic Monotheism), and do righteous deeds; for those, Allaah will change their sins into good deeds, and Allaah is Ever Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful. And whosoever repents and does righteous good deeds; then verily, he repents towards Allaah with true repentance.

[Surah al-Furqaan (25): 70-71]

Abu Sirma reported: When death approached Abu-Ayyub Ansari, he said: I was concealing something from you. I heard the Messenger of Allah, peace be upon him, say, "If you did not commit sins, Allah would create people who would sin and He would forgive them."

[Sahih Muslim, Book 37, Number 6620]

Ibn Abbas reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, "Whoever continuously seeks Allah's forgiveness, then Allah will make a way out for him from every hardship, from every anxiety, and will provide him with sustenance from where he does not expect."

[Sunan Abu Dawud, Book of Prayer, Number 1518, Hasan fil Matan]

Abu Musa reported: The Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, said, "Verily, Allah the Exalted stretches out His Hand by night for those who repent until the coming of the day, and He stretches out His Hand by day for those who repent until the coming of the night; this is until the sun rises from the west."

[Sahih Muslim, Book 37, Number 6644]

 

wow.... I support everyone's right to express themselves however they are comfortable. Wear whatever makes you comfortable, act however makes you comfortable. But I just need to say that, as a woman (an adult human female), this is the biggest steaming pile of sexist bullshit I've read in a very long time. There is no one "type" of woman and the way you have described your personality, in all it's shallow and flakey glory is not becuase you have a "woman's brain". Women are not "naturally" shy and passive, we can be naturally assertive and aggressive. We have hobbies that go beyond combing our hair and watching Beyonce videos. What about all the women and girls who are nothing like the stereotypical bimbo personality you have described?! Are they actually men trapped in women's bodies. Keep doing you, but maybe do a little research into the social constructs of gender, because right now the rhetoric you are spewing in regards to what being a woman is, is really sexist. Also you might interested to learn that science doesn't support the idea of male and female brains
"Our brains really are DIFFERENT than a guys brain."

http://www.sciencemag.org/news/2015/11/brains-men-and-women-aren-t-really-different-study-finds
http://mentalfloss.com/article/71811/there-no-difference-between-male-and-female-brains-study-finds
https://www.newscientist.com/articl...eres-no-such-thing-as-a-male-or-female-brain/