Trans, no dick and still my masturbation addiction is ruining me

I'm basically gonna copy-paste what I just wrote on reddit:

For a bit a background : I'm a 22yo student, trans masculine (which means I have a vagina & a clit but no dick), and have been taking a testosterone treatment for my dysphoria for the past two years, which while saving my life has unleashed something in me I didn't know was there.

I've always been confused on whether I was hypersexual or asexual, because while I wasn't attracted to anybody in particular, was kinda grossed out by porn and had never come in my entire life, I've always been obsessed with sex and really horny, and my earliest memory of masturbation goes back to when I was 4 (except I didn't know I was masturbating then until much, much later. to me it was just stimulation that made me feel nice.)

I started consuming porn in middle school, and at the time it was only comics and hentai, but after highschool I started watching live action porn even though it used to gross me out and pretty much conditioned myself to like it and developed more and more extreme kinks because of it. This coincidentally kind of matches when I started taking testosterone.

Testosterone is very powerful, and very scary. In a short amount of time, it's made my clit grow huge (when I was even doubting its existence before as it was so small) and my libido skyrocket. I thought I was horny before, but now? I'm in horny hell. It's like a neverending boner, and to make things worse I finally figured out how to orgasm last year; and the problem when you've got "female genitals" like mine is that there's no refractory period. The only thing limiting me on how many times I can come is exhaustion. And I just can't control myself. To give you an idea, I one day ended up climaxing 27 times in a row. This is not an exaggeration, I *counted*.

I could be reading an article on the shrimp industry and by reflex my hand would slip inside my pants and start jacking it in boredom, so it's not even just a porn problem. I don't know how to deal with this.

Now you might think "well if testosterone made you like that, why don't you try not taking it?" and the answer is I have. I've tried and stopped taking testosterone for months and it did literally nothing to my libido, I think I've kind of opened Pandora's boner box, and I can't ever close it again.

This has not only made it very difficult for me to go out (I forget meetings, I go to bed too late and sleep for most of the next day, I neglect important things I need to do), but the strain, both physical and moral, is bad. My (thankfully non dominant) hand is in agony because of the repetitive movements and coming over and over just makes me feel like human garbage.

This is to the point where I've been seriously considering getting my clit surgically removed for many months now and am actively trying to get medical approval to do it. At the point where I am right now, I honestly think I wouldn't miss it because I've had way more orgasms than the average person would have in a lifetime. *I'm over it.*

I've tried using numbing cream, deleting all my porn or nsfw adjacent browser tabs (about 500...), trying to get into "denial" kink communities and whatnot, and there's just nothing I can find that actually works.
Honestly I don't know if I'm coming here for advice or just for emotional support, because I'm pretty much at the end of my rope here. If I get approved for surgery, I think I won't hesitate a second to do it.

P. S. : I know posts from people like me are a bit unusual here but please show kindness. I'm genuinely trying to get better.

 

Like I mentionned, this has nothing to do with porn in particular, as I'm just aroused all the time and can get off just fine without porn. Porn isn't the cause of my problem, it's a symptom. If I were dating someone I would be just as miserable because they'd have to deal with my permanent arousal, and orgasming makes me feel terrible no matter how I achieve it at this point.

 

Buddy, I think you're a little confused there, I was born with a vagina.

 

To put it simply, I was "born a woman" and didn't like it much. I have a vagina and a clitoris, and I masturbate using my clit. I however have in my body as much testosterone as the average male because of my treatment, and as explained, it's made me extremely horny.