Trans porn changed me. I want to go back

[Anachin87]

Not gonna give too much back story because it's pretty irrelevant but I'm a big guy 6'4 240lbs and 20 years old. I've always been attracted to girls but one time when I was 14, I was watching porn and to my surprise, the girl whips a dick out. Immediately I thought "oh shit, that's gay" and closed the video. While searching for another porn to watch I started thinking "... actually... seeing her dick didn't really bother me that much".
So I went back to the video and for the first time, masturbated to transwoman porn. It's just been downhill ever since. A year later when I was 15, I wanted to suck dick because I loved watching trans girls get head so I got a bit desperate and actually found a guy on grindr who was 26 years old to pick me up and take me to his house. I am in no way attracted to men but have become so relaxed with having sexual encounters with men. I got this way from watching so much trans porn that I thought, fuck it, sex is sex, I just want to cum. I'm always disgusted after masturvating to trans porn or hooking up with a guy.
THE MAIN REASON IM POSTING THIS is because for the last 3 years (since I was 17) 90% of the porn I watch is trans. I'm so obsessed with trans girls that I'd probably say I'm more attracted to them than actual cis girls. I feel like its affected the way I think about regular girls too because I've been single for years. I'm so picky now and I never was before.
It's honestly to the point where I feel like just coming out as Bi or something so that I can openly date a trans girl.
But my idea of life has always involved a woman and kids.
I just want to stop being so into trans girls cause it has caused me to act out of character and even hookup with guys or crossdressers just so I can get a little experience.
Before the trans porn addiction, I was watching almost nothing but POV Blowjob porn, and I am still obsessed with watching someone give head but now I just love watching trans girls get or give head.
This is all really weird, I know.
I've tried to quit porn completley but I always give in on my 2nd or 3rd day. I've also tried to just watch straight, normal porn but once I get horny, I stop caring about my porn problem and just go straight to what gets me most excited

 

[RaXaZ]

Hey man, my sister is trans and actually did some porn movies herself. I´m glad she has quit this industry and is engaged in relationship. As you might see, it´s actually nothing you need to shame yourself for, because I´ve been there too. Don´t get me wrong here, I didn´t watch those kind of porn but can empathize with what you feel. Other gender are human beings as well and want to be recognized such as "cis" gender . The split within your mind is causing the trouble and racks your brain more than it´s good for you. Be not afraid of who you believe and wish to be, if you like different genders at the moment, it hasn´t to be forever and is eventually fadeing. Stay away from porn anyways, because the harms of it are obviously damaging for your self-confidence and self-respect. Best luck!

 

[dourado2307]

[QUOTE = "Anachin87, post: 2482784, membro: 387661"] Não vou contar muita história porque é muito irrelevante, mas eu sou um cara grande, com 6'4 240 libras e 20 anos de idade. Eu sempre fui atraído por garotas, mas uma vez, quando eu tinha 14 anos, estava assistindo pornô e, para minha surpresa, a garota sacode um pau. Imediatamente pensei "ah, merda, isso é gay" e fechei o vídeo. Enquanto procurava por outro pornô para assistir, comecei a pensar "... na verdade ... ver o pau dela não me incomodou muito".
Então, voltei ao vídeo e, pela primeira vez, me masturbei no pornô transsexual. É só ladeira abaixo desde então. Um ano depois, quando eu tinha 15 anos, eu queria chupar pau, porque eu adorava assistir garotas trans ficarem com a cabeça, então fiquei um pouco desesperada e encontrei um cara no Grindr que tinha 26 anos para me pegar e me levar para a casa dele. Não sou de modo algum atraído pelos homens, mas fiquei tão relaxado ao ter encontros sexuais com homens. Eu consegui assistir tanto pornô trans que pensei, foda-se, sexo é sexo, eu só quero gozar. Eu sempre fico com nojo depois de masturvar para trans pornô ou ficar com um cara.
A RAZÃO PRINCIPAL QUE POSSO POSTAR ISSO é porque nos últimos 3 anos (desde os 17 anos) 90% da pornografia que assisto é trans. Eu sou tão obcecado por garotas trans que provavelmente diria que estou mais atraído por elas do que garotas cis reais. Eu sinto que isso afetou a maneira como eu penso sobre garotas comuns também porque eu estou solteira há anos. Eu sou tão exigente agora e nunca fui antes.
Honestamente, é o ponto em que sinto que estou saindo como Bi ou algo assim, para que eu possa namorar abertamente uma garota trans.
Mas minha idéia de vida sempre envolveu uma mulher e filhos.
Eu só quero parar de gostar de garotas trans porque isso me fez agir como uma personagem e até me conectar com garotos ou crossdressers, para que eu possa ter um pouco de experiência.
Antes do vício em pornografia trans, eu estava assistindo quase nada além de POV Blowjob porn, e ainda estou obcecado em ver alguém dar uma cabeça, mas agora eu adoro assistir garotas trans recebendo ou dando cabeça.
Tudo isso é realmente estranho, eu sei.
Eu tentei sair do pornô completo, mas sempre desisto no meu segundo ou terceiro dia. Eu também tentei assistir pornô normal e direto, mas quando fico excitada, paro de me preocupar com o meu problema pornô e vou direto ao que me deixa mais animado [/ QUOTE]
Man, I think that first of all for you to overcome your problem you need to understand that trans girls are also people and also have feelings.
I know trans people who are incredible and I guarantee you the porn movie doesn't show even 1% of who these people are.
I don't think you should feel bad about being attracted to trans girls, but I think you should stop looking at pornography with both trans girls and cis girls. Another thing that I think can help you is to stop seeing trans girls as trans girls and try to see them only as girls ...
I'm sorry for my mistakes, I'm Brazilian and I have terrible English.