Porn Addiction and Extreme porn recovery Hello im George SORRY FOR MY BAD WRITING, I had very much the same issues that i read all over the net but i needed to tell my story, long story sort I have been viewing Pornography from 10yr old, at stard just images then movies, i was surely low key addicted and masturbated EVERY SINGLE DAY, somedays 2-3 times, till my 20s it was vanilla porn but i was heavy in family role playing porn, all my life i had this phobia of gay images gay porn and i felt very weird when i viewd them by mistake, i remember when i was young i had this fear that im gay and anxious thought, but honestly never felt really like it (Later i discovered about that HOCD thing) when i was 20 i watched a shemale porno, one bringed other and my downfall began (at this point let my mention my first sexual experience with a girl was at 15, i liked very much i was so hard and i couldnt hold my cum, after 3 years of more heavy porn use, i was with a girl and i couldn't keep an erection and i couldnt even come close to cum (maybe due i used a condom) after my shemale addiction after 20s i was with a girl and i couldnt even get it up...this really destroyed me, i slipped deeper in my addiction i would view heavy shemale porn, and sometimes after too much shemale porn couldnt do it i watched some gay scenes, but not any gay scenes, i searched heavy for the most dopamine full scenes that could get me edging and cum like a junkie, I WAS A JUNKIE honestly i was so hypnotized by my dopamine.. After all this i got with this girl...i liked so much , so much like no other girl, in my 21. we got together in bed and i got so hard, we maked love for 1,5 hour, still i couldnt cum but honestly i was feeling amazing...and she left me...this destroyed me once more and i slipped again in my addiction even harder...From this point, and 2 years now i never been with a girl again and im heavy into my addiction with transgender porn...) And here we are , this the current situation, i met one girl that i like sooo muchh and i found the courage fighting this, i havent watched any porn for 7 days and i will keep going, but let me tell you, today i have masturbated for one Semen Test, for medical reasons, i tried thinking about girls and etc but i couldnt get it up...i was so anxious, once i thinked about fucking a trans boom i got erect and i came... This got me really frustaded this is why im back on this forum searching for answers, I hope to get your feedback even my writing skills are so lame, because im not english native , Tell me your thoughts your support and some tips... I will get better ? can i have my life back ? really i want a wife kids and a family..and honestly i LOVE WOMAN so much but my addiction have fucked me up so hard, i have 40 days till i meet her and i will go completely hard mode...**but im not sure if i can get it up again...and how i will face it...i avoided girls this years because im afraid of failure...**anyways thats my story im waiting for some HELP!!! : ( (LET ME ADD A IMPORTANT ELEMENT FOR THIS, I SMOKED WEED very often, I WAS HIGH WHILE I STARTED SHEMALE PORN, I WAS HIGH AND DIDNT THINK IT MUCH, EVRYTIME I CUM AFTER I FEEL SOOO HORRIBLEE THAT I THINK I SHOULD DIE TO ERASE ALL THIS FROM MIND ONCE AND FOR ALL. honestly its a heavy burden in my back all of this , i beg for your HELP !!!