** TRIGGER WARNING ** Erection levels during sex and different positions ?

Hello and much respect to you all for this beautiful community, where we help each other and find solutions to improve ourselves in all aspects of life.

One particular subject or obsession intrigued me after I injured my penis from 2017 to 2018. During that time I did NoFap because I had severe erectile disfunction and that caused me great stress. After healing my peniss in 2018 succesfully I have become super-ultra aware of my erection and penis, at levels I never been before. I blame anxiety because of this. I was literally erect but my mind was not really understanding if it is a good erection or not, yet the girls were moaning in bed and begging to go slower. Still, I was confuse that I am full-erect. I blame anxiety again.


With time, testing at home at with more girls I got to feel that my erection is good, yet I am no longer natural and relaxed as before. I feel somewhat stressed or my brain really stressed out during that injury no-sex period. What happened is that I panic when the penis is not 100% steel hard.

100% steel hard it's for me when the penis is pointing upwards and it feels rock hard and I am unable to bend it.

This panic transformed into an OCD obsession and I stoped having sex and panicking a lot, why ? I tell you why :

I noticed that during sex, in some particular positions, the penis even lowers erection to 80%, no matter what I do, the penis will not go beyond 80%. I checked this positions in porn movies too (I just watched, I don't fap on porn!) and I noticed that on these position the penis is not 100% erect.

My question now is clear, because regarding my past problem I am unable to understand if I was like this before the problem or not. I don't remember if my penis was like this before or not. So the positions are, example :

1. Doggystile. Here the guy has to insert the penis in this angle --------- because on full 100% erect it points upwards and you can't really insert it into her pussy on doggystyle because the angle is simpy like a line, so the penis goes down to like 70% erection and you **** the girl in 70% erection power in doggystyle, always and cum like that in 70% erection power. Am I right here ?

2.Reverse Cowgirl. The penis will go prolly to 60% erection for the angle to enter in the vagina, it will be even a little soft in this one, so you will **** the girl in this position always with like 60% erection and cum like that in 60% erection. Am I right ?

3. Blowjob with her standing on knees while you stand. In this position the penis will always have to get lower to enter the mouth in this angle ------ so on 100% erect steel hard, you have to bend it and lower the erection to like 70% so that you will **** her in the mouth and cum like that, in 70% erection. Am I right here ?

4. Inverted blowjob. In this particular position the penis will be very little erect and soft, probably like 40% erection and you will **** her in the mouth like that, with 50% erection pointing down, and cum like that in 50% erection. Am I right ?

Meanwhile some positions will offer 100% erection like missionary or the girl sitting on you, as you sit on a chair ?

Please make me understand if I am right, because I feel very distressed.


thank you so much

 

Thank you so much your answer is fantastic.

Yet, I don't know how to destroy my obsession. My brain still screams that my erection is not normal and I have to check, porn sites, etc, people, forums.

I just want to know a straight real answer, a honest answer : in some positions the penis cannot be 100% hard erect no matter what one does, is this true ? but honest answer please

 

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