TRIGGER WARNING: Is porn addiction a risk factor in abborent sexual behavior?

Thank you for sharing your experience. I’m so sorry those horrible things happened to you and in your family.

I was just talking this over with him. He’s assuring me that his looking at that was accidental and he has no attraction and is repulsed by that kind of thing. I’m feeling somewhat less concerned and tend to believe him. But I’m cautious to not be naive about it. He’s says he will stop PMO. We haven’t gotten anywhere with what his plans for that might be because I’m just overwhelmed by my disillusionment and trying to make it clear where I’m coming from and how this has damaged my faith. All my past traumas with cheating and lying and deluding myself are hitting me at once. I feel pretty hopeless and powerless. I feel like this life is just nothing but pointless suffering. He’s trying to convince me to hold on to my faith. But I’m just tired of playing every mans fool. I’m tired of believing love and goodness are real. I’m going to need a few days to settle down and get my emotions regulated before I take any further steps.