Just need to put out 'on paper' the extent to which feelings of being unwanted, not good enough, unpopupar, a failure etc act as a strong trigger for me. Very tempted by PMO and disconnected this weekend but resisting as want to see the benefits to improve for myself. Following a big arguement and some tough things said this weekend. A plus is I am finding it easier than at times in the past to think 'you are wrong about me' than accepting the other persons views as the reality. Not sure this makes any sense as very tired but helps to put it out there. Finding the balance of shame over actions from the past and attempting to be positive for the future very tough!