Triggered by NoFap troll

A while ago I came on here looking for help and posted a comment in a forum,
I was new to NoFap and I'd been doing really well but fell as if I was wavering and needed some additional support - so I posted something in a response to someone else post and got berated for posting the wrong thing in the wrong place, which in itself really triggered me and hit my big red 'Fxxx It' button, so for me this was like the monopoly of desire, go straight past titalation, avoid pornhub and go straight to pleasure a stranger in a bush. I haven't had full sex with anyone for over 5 years out of respect for my partner who can not do it anymore and I try my very VERY VERY best to abstain but sometimes it all gets a bit too much so if I'm not getting any sort of pleasure from anywhere what is the point in anything. I lost my connection to God years ago when I lost my faith that has recently been sort of returning but is in a very weird mixed up place, how can one stay strong when seeking help in the virtual words of strangers only to be put down, or rejected by ones partner physically, I feel so alone in the universe sometime and this only feels to confirm that feeling of loneliness.