Hey everyone - the thought of eliminating triggers seemed appealing at first until I realized it's just everywhere and connected to other compulsions From my computer, to my iphotos, to my saved tabs on my browsers, to all my social media accounts, to even yoga class! HAS ANYONE EVER GRADUALLY REMOVED TRIGGERS? I feel it would be overwhelming and disappointing to do it all at once It's almost like - who would I be without these things? I have spent YEARS collecting fetish pictures of people I know and like - it was so rewarding to be able to "see them naked" (to a foot fetish person - seeing barefoot pictures on the beach etc is equivalent to a boob guy seeing boobs (or other private body parts). WITH SO MUCH TIME< EFFORT AND ENERGY invested in building and saving my porn - I can't imagine WHAT THE HELL I WOULD DO IN MY FREE TIME - it's been my goto for boredom and pleasure for prob 25 years or more Fact is - fantasy has become so addicting - feels so good - it's that high from immediate gratification and getting what you want. But the reality is - my sex life is nothing BUT fantasy. it's prob why I have chosen unavailable partners, and become addicted to them (unrequited crushes). It's conflicting - I am happily starting this nofap path (BINGE relasped after 7 days - on day 2 now) - but the part of eliminating and deleting all of my rewarding triggers / photos and collections I've compulsively worked on all these years seems ...upsetting! INSIGHT: I thought having real life BDSM / Fetish sex would be the solution but even browsing sites with dominants triggered me to relapse. I think it's cause something forbidden (such as straight men indulging in a gay man's foot fetish) feels possible - and the fact that they would do this (even if it's for money or findom) makes me feel UNDERSTOOD and ACCEPTED by them even tho there is no real connection. it also makes it exciting to think that straight men would really let me kiss their feet - being that i'm a gay guy. part of me is aware that this would just lead to more fantasy, addictive sex (replacing PMO) and one-sided connection tho CAN'T TELL IF MY DESIRES ARE GENUINE AND SHOULD BE ACTED OUT (that i'm a true submissive with a foot fetish) or if that's just fantasy that has become intensified by porn highs and addiction. Can you relate on some level regardless of gender, orientation and kink? Would love to hear your thoughts on this!