I am a 21 year old Indian who started watching porn and masturbating to orgasm since my 7th grade i.e, since 9 years. My life has been devastated since. No 'real' happiness, no 'true' emotions, no 'proper' socializing, no 'focused' work. However, being good at studies I cracked my tough entrances for the graduation and got admitted to some prestigious college (IIT, PS: Indians would know). People tell college life is the best, while mine sucked to the core. Reason being, I don't know. That is the most frustrating part, I don't know why my life is always miserable. No possible dating life, no possible girls in life, no proper aim towards career; I was lost. I graduated without any job at hand and started preparing for Job entrance exams. This preparation has pointed out the problems in my life and what caused them. I masturbate like 2-3 times a day, with numerous sexual desires and fantasies. Some week ago, I was too much into studies that I was not active sexually for almost 5-6days which felt so good. The difference being, I wasn't having sexual thoughts and was not masturbating. At this vulnerable I realized I was an addict to porn and masturbation and like smoking and drugs this is too a highly addictive and dangerous craving. I decided that, for all good causes, for being focused on studying, for building a proper career, for succeeding at my goals and targets, for being a better person, for having a good social and mental life I will try NoFap! Starting today, I hope NOFAP community helps me overcome my miserable life and make me a better person for better world. 5th of JULY 2020, I take an oath of No PMO!!!