My day has been mixed but i can say that I am still clean. I've spent more than 3 weeks without porn so far and the last days I feel totally terrible. Some new problems turned up including a lot of fears, less self confidnet in work, etc. But the biggest problem is... depression: I felt awful, I did't want to exist /I don't wanted to commit suicide or stg but just felt very 'neutral'/. I was so sad, I had't got any good thoughts, lost my enthusiasm in everything, lost my aims and almost gave up everything... totally upset... I knew that it was the affect of not watching porn but I didn't care of coure. and I knew that a relapse would be much awful :/ About an hour ago I had sex with my boyfriend and I didn't enjoy it so much :/ when I used to had an orgasm to porn, my ejaculation was amazing but this last 'coming' was only a bit joyful. I new this is just an after.affect, too, my nervous system's reacton to withdrawning porn and its high-stimuli it gave... I hope once I can enjoy having sex in its fullness :/ maybe I should try tantric sex?