Hello, As with all awkward fap anxiety induced introductions goes for me, I have no ideal where to start.. So I guess I just share about my struggle with fapping and trying NoFap.. Being 23 I have been a hardcore internet porn addict since i guess around the 4th grade. I suspect it has filled my life with unnecessary anxiety/depression (maybe even ocd/adhd) which directly contributed to me making very poor decisions in key points of my life till now e.g. dropping out of school in the 6th grade for a life of internet porn all day every day till roughly my current age. (never technically finished a grade since then. I tried to go back every few years but it was stressful and that lead to porn binges and dropping out again and again and again.) I regress, a few years ago I started reading up on NoFap and it's benefits (e.g. curing E.D.) on another site, (yourbrainonporn) So in the back my of my mind NoFap is the right thing to do. But the longest I have gone was 2 weeks which is now deep in the past 2 and half years ago the same time I quit drinking alcohol cold turkey and not 1 drop since. Now today I am at a crossroads having accidentally started a NoFap on October 15/16 (it was a 2 fap in a row afternoon but NoFap before sleep on the 15.) I'm not sure how serious I will be this time cause it's unplanned but my goals are to eat healthy and exercise everyday and pray for a miracle 30 day NoFap. Now the crossroad part is the oh so much temptation is a porn folder on my computer with literally has over 11,000 photos and that's just the 3D album. A week ago my goal was to organize this photos into 30 sub-folders according to their similar character traits e.g. underwear, full nude, topless, etc. Which i learned quickly would take like a billion hours to do. Now i wonder if i should just delete the folder that took thousands of hours of downloading.(and sense of regret not viewing them all.) I have many times in the past deleted such folders and all porn off my computer in the past to with no luck with NoFap. which i expect is because I could never quit reading ecchi manga/anime. quitting 3d porn is easy but quitting hentai I rather tear off all my finger nails. Sorry about the long rant now just trying paint of a picture of where stand right now. Oh and trying go to sleep without a fap is very difficult A strong point in helping me in NoFap is porn has no feel good appeal right now not even my main fetish does much now, it's just habit and release and even painful just to get another fap in.