Short intro here, I'm a class clown kind of guy who can count real friends with only one hand...I'm a bit of a tool who nobody can take seriously, but people keep me around for good laughs and banter. Maybe it's my personality, character or whatever it is, it's lead to me feeling more lonely than ever recently. I just want close friends who I can really open up to, but it's so hard because when I try being the nice guy I guess, I'm just shrugged away by other guys. I keep pushing and make an effort to try to help others but for some reason I just get shut down in a polite way I guess? It's really hard to explain, it's not that people hate me (at least I hope not), but rather my use as a friend only extends to a banter kind of guy... And this just makes me really lonely and depressed on the inside. In my school there are only 2 maybe 3 people who will take me seriously and who can trust me and vice versa.... I'm just wondering if my current dilemma is solely due to the stigma amongst males where they aren't supposed to open up etc. It's really confusing because my boys are always glad to have me around in real life and have a funny conversation, but when I text them they just shut down conversations within a few texts... I really want to develop meaningful relationships but it's so difficult... It almost feels like I have no friends at all.