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Trying to kick the habit... again (god I'm so stupid)

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Addictionhelpseeker, Sep 17, 2015.

  1. Addictionhelpseeker

    Addictionhelpseeker Fapstronaut

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    I've been through this a bunch of times. For awhile, I actually thought I'd "kicked it" and hadn't been using porn at all for a long time.

    It snuck up on me... honestly I'm not sure how long it's been that I got back into porn as a habit. I guess there was a point where I'd use it occasionally and think "oh, yeah haven't done this for awhile, guess I'm not addicted" and then somehow transitioned...

    I didn't know I had a problem until recently. I was forced to abstain in order to get tested after a vasectomy, and it's just killing me not to PMO. I even surfed porn yesterday and today KNOWING that it was a bad idea and that I really shouldn't because if I do it at all in a day I'm likely not going to be able to get it up later...

    Worst part: today I have to go to an office and provide a "sample". Even WITH porn I don't know if I'm capable under those conditions... I mean when you separate yourself from it it seems like a kinky fetishy thing to do but as soon as you walk into the office, believe me, all the sexiness goes RIGHT OUT of the moment...

    ... and I cannot imagine how I'm going to handle HAVING to PMO under pressure when I'm already showing signs of... what would you call it... "porn fatigue" maybe? I've had to be selective about the types of porn I view now. Used to be just someone dressed scantily did it. Now I'm... well anyway, you know the deal.

    Anyway here I am to try to kick it. Hopefully for good, hopefully without making the same stupid, stupid mistake again. Wish me luck.
     
  2. MadHatter

    MadHatter Fapstronaut

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    Good luck, man.
    Welcome to the brotherhood!
     

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