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New Fapstronaut
First I’ll try to tell about what needs to be known, guess maybe too long but really hope can get some suggestions. So I first masterbated when I was lik 11, it was just orgasm, without any porn or pictures, I don’t even think I was thinking about anything, I just liked the way it felt, the orgasm. I started masterbating looking at girls, mostly bald girls and girls who have glasses, think they are my fetishes when I was around 14, still no porn at all, and I never really fapped for more, I had it under control. One thing I noticed was even if I had crushes for girls it was like hard to horny for normal girls, but if I see a girl with a short hair i get horny. I started porn when I was 16, and it was after my exams....and during that time I also got to know about transgender and stuff, so I did get some kind of an attraction to it and started learning more, as more time went I saw my self fantasizing about being a girl and masterbating to those stuff. So much so I did nothing but fapping for about 2 days in Jan last year, but as school began it slowly went away as I got more busy. I still did fap like twice/once a week mostly to my fetishes. it was mostly YouTube videos of bald girls,girls with glasses and sometimes to straight porn, or to girls masterbating. As time went on I again started noticing that maybe I can’t get horny for girls but I didn’t worry too much at the time. A month ago my fetish for bald girls got too much that I started to like fantasize about having sex with bald female nuns who shave their heads, I guess this is very weird, so I started to go back to another fetish, my fetish for transgender. That slowly started to grow into sissy porn, as hypnosis and fantasizing about girls cloth started to overtake I really became like fapping only for that for about 2 weeks, I tried anal play with my hands and did try to cum on my face, but after that I felt like shit and wanted to stop, this all happened 4 days before my final exams. I studied the next few days but I relapsed on the night of the day before my exams, I fapped more than thrice and I really think I fucked up my exams, that led me to fap even more as I continuesly did it for the next week. Though I did feel anger when the humiliation thing came in, guess u know what I mean. I was just so depressed and sad, but one day after fapping I decided enough is enough I need to get out of this, and then came across NoFap. I haven’t viewed ny porn or had an orgasm or has masterbated from that day, I’m on my day 8 of the streak. So is nofap for 90 days good for me, or do I need to do anything different, or should I try masterbating to just normal girls, return to my fetish of bald girls etc, or try and find a girlfriend, I’m 18 now and I haven’t had a girlfriend yet, please hope you can give some advice for me, thanks
