I’ve been reading your logs, your posts, everything I can to try to understand this addiction. my fears: that my husband is willing to give me up for the women he desires online that he can’t even touch. So being able to touch me is apparently doesn’t even compare because he chooses them over me every single time. That what I thought was an absolutely amazing marriage we have (he says so too) is actually a farce or he would put me in front of those women and stay away from them. Because nobody who loves me like he says he does would purposely damage me over and over like this. That he keeps me for emotional and mental stimulation and uses me as a means to have real sex while fantasizing about the online women he can’t touch. That he would leave me if he could for one of those women but he can’t get them so he has to settle for me and settles for fantasizes of them. That he lies to me over and over because he needs them. If he disclosed or tells the truth, he will be forced to stop seeing them online. Love and sex go together for me, so the last assumption is he must want them long term for love/relationship etc. I would like input from men with wives that do what my husband does. I mostly get from him “I don’t know” so I’ve had to form my own opinions. I need to know why! He’s in group, individual, etc etc. But no matter how I beg, how I support, he cannot stop lying. Not once has he disclosed a truth on his own and when he finally fesses up, it’s only because I have major proof and he can’t lie. Which is why the conclusions I made above are my truth at this point. I need to stop being a hamster in a wheel.