TS Porn

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  1. cadia guardsman

    cadia guardsman Fapstronaut

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    So its being sometime and finally i got courage to make this post because im ashame i watch this thing its fucking disgusting...

    Porn background (watch out triggers): Started when i was 12/13 (im 22 now) at begging vanilla , but also i watched alot girls doing oral and manual stuff , because i feel always that is the most close to PMO that exist on sex so its the most close to real sex i could have in PMO so i watch alot of that .... did watched some light fendom stuff (hardcore stuff really scares me) but as i got more confidence , better looks and self esteem i stopped quite easily watching that stuff , so i return to vanilla/ oral and manual porn ....also some foot fetiche but it isnt quite an issue and its not a big fetiche and

    Before nofap i never watched ts porn but unfortunaly lattely i watched a bit and my most recent relapses are to that shit....i blame on my way of PMO because i always PMO the fastest way possible so that i get the O , i dont know why but that was always my way of PMOing , since the begging looks like i only like the O part ...and i dont know why but with ts porn i get aroused very quickly and O very quickly , at the same time i feel disgusted and with the want to throw up so its a mix of big arrousel and disguisting want to throw up ... it sucks because some ts look like women with a different part but its still disgusting , i only PMO to the most "normal" parts and i cant see the other parts , but its a big shit because of that i feel more guilty after , than if it was with regular porn
    Also on a dating site , some ts contacted me and they really looked as women , started compliments to my body , and it started on sexting even sexted with a ts escort very atractive and i almost went there but Thank God i didnt!, that shit aroused me and got me even more into fapping only to that shit, i even got the toughts of fucking one , but i wont to that , i am a good looking men , i can atract women quite easily (thats why i unfortunally also atracct ts )
    and this made a retrocess on my rebooting

    I felt sometimes like an hipocrate because i admire great warriors , rightous people and also iam a religious person (christian) but i watch this i feel very mad about myself i shouldnt be doing it , but idk why maybe because it is a different thing its much more difficult to give up and set free from this, also corona stuff severely compromised my lifestyle and i get bored and less motivated much more faster

    Bottom line : Even if your curious never watch ts porn neither see ts escorts , it is not normal and it won help you anywere in life

    but im still fighting and i will overcome this shit
     
  2. Tryingto

    Tryingto Fapstronaut

    This is the danger of porn, @cadia guardsman: For those of us who are vulnerable to such things, the behaviour will escalate. Please note my choice of words: 'the behaviour will escalate'. We start with this then move to that and pretty soon we find ourselves who knows where wondering how it all happened.

    My suggestions? Try to be both kind and honest with yourself. By 'kind' I mean don't judge yourself too much, don't layer yourself over with labels that really don't apply. And by 'honest' I am encouraging you to admit that porn is not good for you, that it leads places you don't want to go. Out of both of these, I am confident you will begin finding ways to do something different. To do the next right thing...
     
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  3. Emanuil

    Emanuil Fapstronaut

    You didn’t miss anything. I was with a few of them and sex was nothing special. (You are actually fucking a man.) The only good thing is that some of them try harder to please you (than most of the girls) and they are used to have anal sex, so there is no problem on that side:)
     
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  4. cadia guardsman

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    Yep it escalated , im quite sure if i watched ts porn at begging , i wouldnt watch it neither get aroused , fortunally i still get aroused to regular porn, but my recent relapses are always with choosing ts porn ... i dont consider myself gay because i was never atraccted to men , i never watch and im not interested on watch gay porn , on street , everywhere i always feel atraccted to women and i only fap to thoso that really look like women and i even convince myself that their women , but thats a bad very bad mindset i have to stop that
     
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  5. Tryingto

    Tryingto Fapstronaut

    This is coming from my own personal experience, @cadia guardsman, so take this with a grain of salt: please consider staying away from all forms of porn, at least for a while. Let your system recover a bit. Give yourself some distance from the tendency to escalate. Put the matter of 'am I this' or 'am I that' to the side for a while and simply get clean. Then see what life wants to offer you.

    All the best...
     
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  6. Emanuil

    Emanuil Fapstronaut

    You are not gay, cause gay people are not that much into TS porn. If you were gay, you’ll be probably watching two men pounding each other’s asses, or you'll be out there looking for a boyfriend:)
    But there must be something that attracts you to transsexuals and ts porn. Something that you can’t find in other types of porn. If that's not the case, you could easily masturbate to regular porn.
    If you discover what that is, that can be a good start toward your problem solution.
    Now, it can be just out of curiousness (seeing chicks with a d*ck), also there are different categories in TS porn (with top and bottom TS), and all other subcategories that include some form of BDSM … and if you find what detail exactly arouses you – you’ll have one half of your problem solved.

    Now, let’s get serious. You mentioned that you are a Christian and that that is important to you. I hope you know what Apostle Paul said in 1st Corinthians 6:9 (and it applies to masturbation, any kind of porn, etc.) … so you might have another reason to put more effort and get rid of this sin.
     
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  7. cadia guardsman

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    Its the most "normal" type of porn its like vanilla ts porn , the other ones , has iam not a submissive person doesnt apply to me , but i fear it can escalate .
    What really arouses me is when they have really big feminine atributes and i dont know why i think i have a little fetish for fake huge brests .


    Yes brother , thats true and its more motivation for me to try harder and get rid of this shit
     
  8. Emanuil

    Emanuil Fapstronaut

    well you can find huge breast implants on almost any female pornstar today. So, it can't be just that ... there must be something else besides those huge fake breasts:) and that's nothing to be ashamed for. we all look at ts porn for that reason.
     
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  9. cadia guardsman

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    The main reason is because its a new thing
     
  10. Emanuil

    Emanuil Fapstronaut

    OK, I'll have to agree if you said so. but we both know that there are so many new things in the porn industry these days, yet you choose this one (you even wanted to see ts escort).
    Anyway, if this is just some novelty that fascinated you for no reason it will have to pass soon enough, and you shouldn't have a problem anymore. But if your fascination with ts porn persists, then you should try finding answers elsewhere ...
     
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