"Tug" of War

Just tried edging for the first time as the first step on the path to redemption. I thought it would be similar to how methadone is given to heroin addicts to start their recovery. I couldn't have been any more wrong... I took a tug of faith, believing that I could stop at the cliff on the edge of the abyss that is ejaculation. I didnt just fall into the pit, i dove dickfirst. But i will crawl out. I know i will... The problem i mainly have is the voices. When I'm home alone i try to pass time by watching tv, but the second the news comes on and that fucking hot news anchor comes on the air all i can think of is sticking my dick all inside of her. One thing leads to the next and then I'm laying in my bed with my ipad watching some asian getting fucked by three black guys. Theres a serious problem with me, my dick's desires come before my brains and it has to stop. I dont know how im gonna do it. But i will become a true fapstronaut and stay clear of the wicked news anchor. I will use my REAL head brothers.