Since the beginning of 2019, I've been seeing escorts and drinking a lot. I am 31 and living with my parents. I started working at 26 (which is late, should've started working earlier) but have not saved any money, due to me helping my parents with rent and just being reckless with my money. I have about $2000 to my name. I started drinking due to depression and anxiety. I live with very strict and overprotective parents. They have tried to dictate every aspect of my life. They have raised me well, but refuse to cut the umbilical cord. The escorts are a result of me not being able to find a girlfriend. I have tried really hard but just can't, does not help that I look like a high schooler. So I mostly get attention from young females. Seems like I have 1000 thoughts going through my mind. Especially when I see everyone else around me succeeding. I just got a promotion at work and will be making more money. My plan is to spend the next 2-3 months just saving money and moving out of NYC to a place that is more affordable. I have a few places in mind. The cost of living is cheaper but you get a lot more for your money. NYC is overrated in my opinion and just not worth living here anymore. This city just is not the same. Overcrowded, overpriced, crime and it's dirty. Gentrification is doing more harm than good. It just makes it so the natives in that community can't afford to live there anymore. Would love to stay in the city and have found places I can afford. But it's not worth the price. Would rather go somewhere else save money and possibly move back in the near future. I just have to work on my self confidence, let go of fear and step out my comfort zone. Also take a break from social media.